Scavanging Perplexity

2007-04-25T17:27:00.000+08:00

hello hello how've you been? (:

little miss calculator

2006-12-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

Hello, i've updated my livejournal. it's still pretty new and skimpy ah wells.
I'VE GOT NOTHING MUCH TO SAY AND IM BOREEEDDD . AT TIMES LIKE THIS I REALLY WISH I WAS STILL A KID WHO'S RECKLESSS AND STUPID. well not exactly stupid. okaye, NAIVE. growing up's such a bore but in a way it's good. but it sucks cause it's darn sophisticaed. ah whatever. the time of the month's coming that i'm almost sure. it'll be my excuse for all this.
(:

GOODBYE>

ladies, how's tonight?

2006-12-09T23:20:00.001+08:00

my grannies and some coussies from both sides of my family came for dinner.
Well this time i graduated from being the babysitter to being the chef, muaha.
Yay happy fifteen! ah wells i can't possibly be kiddy all my life and i finally prepared a meal for my grandma.which is wonderful haha i'm finally all growned-up! :D

your horison is down and pepper's up your nose,bleeding i sang a bitter song .

i feel undeniably empty whenever i talk to you .

gah, can you just make me hate you or something?

i just wanna throw it all up tonight and leave tomorrow walking.

Oh, and minus the hangover please.

Sheesh, i'm at it again ain't i?

then again i think i've gotten back on the track of memories.

berries<3

oh one last thing.

mrkumu_man.lj is no longer in use cause i forgot the password.

the new one's heyhardaches.lj .

there's a high possibility that i'll abandon that site hahah cause i cant bear to part this one. teehees. somehow i feel normal again. thank God for friends cause i lived through it. this time it lasted only 3 days? hahaha WTH.

mummy!

2006-12-04T16:33:00.000+08:00

if only you could just stop and listen to me.

randomous

2006-12-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

Have you heard of the name who never changes, or , at least the person who never changes?
okay well if your answer's negatitive then i guess you're living in denial OR the possiblity of you knowing hte same person as i am is very, very high.
whoo! and that just means that we're family.

hello family!
have a nice day.

OH! God is sooo GOOD! :D

falling asleep

2006-12-02T11:35:00.000+08:00

i really need to stop falling asleep while mugging and get my butt out of my bed when the alarm clock rings. ellohee, i need to get disciplined. STUUUDY!

pollution.

2006-12-01T22:50:00.000+08:00

i'm not those who loves weaving enemies , and i cant deny that i do feel awkward and effected when people hate me ( even if they are just strangers ).

it's hard and i'm tired of trying to prove my innocence.

i'm not those who would claim to know people or claim to be closely related to someone whom i dont know. i may wave and say hi here and there but that doesnt mean that i know that person well and in response to the rumour : i have never talked to her on the phone nor whatsoever that have been passed around.

and hey, i dint mean to hurt you.

my message was polluted on the way.

i dont hurt people not even those i dislike at least not intentionally.

i cant even stand people hating me how would i even want to make people hate me?

ahwells i did my best and i shant talk about this anymore.

honestly you look fine in braces so yeah.

why is it that there's always misunderstandings between ues?

God help! :/

i'm oh wella back!

2006-12-01T22:26:00.000+08:00

hello how do you do.

i'm back! well but honestly i hate it here, i want to get back there as soon as i can.
i wanna live that hastle free lifestyle where i can hang my cloth line in my green greeen garden where my neighbours can't feast their eyes on. some where tranquil, somewhere where there's abundance in freedom and clean air. a laid back lifestyle where stress is absent.
sounds like heaven doesn't it?

well i wont let it just be wishful thinking.
i'm thinking of travelling the world.
i'm thinking of Cambodia & Indonesia once again.
i'm thinking and missing Sabruth/ Pisal and all the wonderful kids back in Phnom penh.
Adam and all the other cuties in Bogor.

i'm thinking of what the world cannot give me.
i'm thinking of what Lv and Chanel can do on me.
i'm planning my future on water,
and feeding my thoughts for air.

it's amazing what songs can make people think of haha

prom was interesting/ tiring , scary too.
ah wells blogging isnt fun anymore.

,fine i lied.

byebye( for ten days )

2006-11-16T23:13:00.000+08:00

okaye this is it, one more day.

mummy helped my big time with my packing today ,
i think i'd still be in the midst of packing if it wasnt for her constant reminders.
it really kinda suck to leave your loved ones for soo long (ten days the longest so far )
But well it'll be good cause it'll train me when i go abroad?

hmmmm.. joan's a brave girl and she's gonna make her fam proud. haha
alright i'm done blogging. goodnight cheerios. have a great week ahead!
i wont forget your momentos and give me full prayer support yeah?

BYE LOVE!<3
i kinda wished for a bonvoyage message from you sir.
But i guess my imaginary postman must have left it behind under those pile of love notes.
none the less it's alright, i guess it's just a precaustion. cause we all know we dont want another heartbreak.
{ psalms 93. }

heh heh

2006-11-14T22:58:00.001+08:00

it's 3 more days!
then again, maybe i'm not all that excited.
i mean, all the work load and prefects stress.
ahweells. ANGKOR WAT here i come!
BYE BYE.

cambodia trip.

2006-11-13T21:13:00.002+08:00

5 moree days to gooo!

cambodia trip.

2006-11-13T21:13:00.001+08:00

5 moree days to gooo!

cambodia trip.

2006-11-13T21:13:00.000+08:00

5 moree days to gooo!

Harlequin girls

2006-11-11T16:22:00.000+08:00

Pardon me for the lack of posts, there's nothing much to update anyway. Nothing important.

Finally, holidays.
Well not exactly when you've got alot of homework and revisons to do and when you've got headstart coming. Beth , Joanne(Woh) and i'll be leaving for cambodia on the 17 Nov at 7.05pm terminal 1. We'll be having lunch at around three so if you're interested call me yeah? :D
Will be back on the 26, 11.35 am.

I cant deny the fact that i'm hell excited but at the very same time i'm really sad cause i'll be missing Pec/PB camp. COASTAL KAYAKING! oh my goosebumps! argh. Rachel& the rest, enjoy! Ah wells, i'm serving God !
so that's loads better hahaha. talking bout lil kiddies- dee-lightful!

It've been a rough week for beth and myself. HAHAHA
arguments and what you have. it's pretty amusing .
well it's good cause we're closer now , teees .

Went jamming on thursday. it was gooood. :D

oh, prom preparation shopping tml. i can't wait!

trust's a painful word.
i guess it's true that as we get older simplicity twists and burns,
it deviates and self-destruct. i wont go into detail cause
i've been through so much this year. I've learnt. and i still am grateful for these lessons.
okaye i guess that's about it.
Love you Jeee-sus! :D <3

Obliged.

2006-11-11T13:12:00.000+08:00

One who is innocent of the violations of sins.
How then should she be found guilty if she's clear of such?
and,the injustice when she the accusor's guilty of the same.

The problem is just the refusal, the denial.
Not the accused but the accusor.
Or could it be the accused?
and that penaltys her nice intentions.

If only we could all hear from the same frequency and understand the same words of truth.
That we could all just accept and adapt , just like how our forefathers did
when industralisation came forth with new riches and tragedies.
Would things be better then?

Would life still be as fruitful or (may it be) dreadful at the very same time.
i'd pay to wonder.
if the world now is the forth coming of our forefather's predictions
-where robots co-inhabited with the living.

Would we understand and hold on to our living rights then.
Would our bonds and understanding of ourselves be stronger then.
Would our hearts be washed clean of suspisions and foul words then?
i'd beg to know.

lolus

2006-11-03T02:28:00.000+08:00

i miss you , friend.
things seem awkward when i'm around you this days.
maybe it's cause of what i've heard that changed my perspective of you,
maybe i'm just taking precaution cause the first blow was hard enough.
Maybe it's cause we're all busy with our own friends/cca.
you know my face cant lie and i bet you see through it .
Buddy,i ~~think i~~ still thrust you.
Sighmaybe it's just me.
But i really miss you alot, alot.

had my jab for the cambodia trip in the afternoon.
beth dint cry. :D
okaye this post's rather wierd.
ah wells night, it's 2.30am alr.

drunks lives a cherry coke bubble pop .

2006-11-01T20:58:00.000+08:00

Let's have a tiny dose of emo .
My life's greeat , you were just a bonus that i could've lived without.
well the truth stands.

Ogayes lets start off with yesterday's chalet.
It was FUN. gagagagaga (:
well here's to the cambodia cip team:
it was sure one vivocity-full of fun energy-packed and memorable yesterday .i really cant wait to go to cambodia NOW.
oh cool lasagne. :]

We slept at 1.30am or is it 2/3? and woke up at six , us the sec3s rushed to school but was late by 20+ mins. oh the 4 monkeys wanted to pon school but ended up heading home to get their unis instead.smartyes!

Marcus and his darn GIN knocked out 2 harmless buns in class today, miss johnson was away. drunks living in their cherry coke bubble pop denying that they were drunk.haha it was actually kinda amusing, just like the 4 monkeys.lol

sometimes, it's a blessing instead.

RAIN and my other Korean whooha

2006-10-30T16:25:00.000+08:00

oh yeah Rain coming to singapore on 21/01/07 !
the cheapest ticket is $188 mummy sounded keen to sponsor me.
BUT HEY NO I WONT GO. Call me an inconsistent fan or so-you-must,
it's a waste of money the most I'll just go ahead with the aunties to wait for him at the airport but then again I'm not that crazy. AND im quite turned off by the amount of people learning korean and all the korean stuffies. ah man.
sigh which means i must be 1 out of the 193413051 people who's drooling over them and that kinda suck. okaye i think i'm laying off korean for awhile and stick to JESUS. so what if millions love him too , HE's my personal daddy.
okaye i need to practise abstinence from KDRAMA too. i'm getting addictied to love story at Harvard on youtube and my craze for GOONG havent ended yet. Oh JiHoon. i dont know if this is wierd but those shows actually motivated me to study! HAHAHA no joke.

it doesnt take a rocket scientist to know

2006-10-30T15:27:00.000+08:00

It doesnt take a rocket scientist to know that i've been feeling @%&#! these days.
it's not that i want to ( no body wants to) nor is it that i've gotten into any unwanted trouble.
Maybe it's cause it's the time of the month again, maybe cause i've been such an airhead these days with nothing to do , maybe i've been over-relient on my own efforts thus causing me to dry up spiritually ( it sucks even more than anything else cause God is so good! yet i cant bring myself to believe enough to trust enough or to commit enough. it's me not God. he's perfect.He's GOD. ), maybe it's you and how much i've heard about you ( it's not as if i still feel the same way like before, it's just that even as a friend i feel disappointed and shocked. you were darn late for class today so much more getting sent out. what a suprise, an unwanted suprise. )
and well maybe it's cause my heartaches to see my parents working so hard to bring in bread for the family ( them saving up so much money for the three of us yet us or should i say myself take things forgranted and all those things that they've provided for me . My cambodia trip and church camp both overseas , they entrusting me with loadsa pocket money of which i spent relentlessly on cab fare. yes i do hear those " how can joan do that" and those " what a waste of money" . NOT forgetting my horrrid results. you'd never imagine how disappointed mummy looked and how daddy tried to pretend not to mind , what was my response then you ask? Short reticent replies thank you.So now you know im not that all nice-sweet and super-puffed joannie aye? haha i've even complaint bout my parents.Really for this i could die for but no, because of this i must live on cause i've got a long way to go to prove to my parents that i love and truly cherish them .)

That i learnt from daddy is True courage. By facing your probs Bravely and not slitting your risks when your so called " forebber boiifriiend" breaks up with you so what if i've gotten bad results now , i've got a whole lifetime to prove myself that i can do better. So what if your parents dont love you, there's a God who loves you ( one whom you refuse to acknowledge or refuse to get help from ) and there's people out there who do. Slitting your wrist and attempting suicide wont solve your problems. Get the point? Get help , he's always around/ it's always around. (:

Well i guess i'm finally out of that trance . Oh that's a great thing. Lord, i dont wanna go back yeah. haha i've shared much today , the post dint go like i planned but well it's still cool.

P.S. Mummy daddy , i love you.

if you've got the time ,Hillsong United -youth alive- deeply in love.
greeat song.

sometimes it's smart to be stupid,in that way you'll not be too smart to miss the GOOD that is right in front of you. (:

debate 25/10/06

2006-10-25T22:15:00.000+08:00

Faith 3/4 won the sec3 debate. :D
and congrats to Zann our best debator. hahah
great experience i would say.
sorry lin. i'll reply to all your msges. okaye?
had drill, hahha it's one helluva fun.
OKAYE IM GONE!

JEEEEEE,SUS! :D

neneish

2006-10-24T22:46:00.000+08:00

dinner carousels , monkeys at the playground, painted hearts and casseroles.

Daddy daycare's so cute! :D

1345

2006-10-24T16:43:00.000+08:00

My friend, it makes a world of difference when you fight from victory and not for victory! go to click me and read it. it's good.

i don't know if it's the rain , haze or the late morning that made me feel all shitty inside. i hate it. i hate every inch of this.it's one of those days when you feel all lousy bout yourself and you just cant seem to kick it off.
i've got a bad habit of comparing myself with others and well all know that comparison's the killer. Sigh, i cant help it. so God help me ! sheeshemns
know, i'm beginning to feel better now. haha

i'm gonna practise hard on my drums cause i wanna serve in m.ministry next year!
WHOOO! so God help me and teach me. oh yeah.

debate tml on singlish.
-hope- we'll win (:

give me wings so i can fly and break free from the woes of this world.
And if it's strength i need, Give it. And if it's wisdom i need, Give it.
cause i need all of it, exaliburs just wont do.

Credits to:

2006-10-23T23:54:00.000+08:00

How's the new blogskin?
i'm really proud of myself haha
anyway here are the credits ( just in case i get into trouble with peeps , im nice. )

Background , colour changed: flowervase.lj.com
blogskin layout, without bckgrd/pic : tammy-.blgt.com
:D GOODNIGHT! AND THANK GOD FOR HOLIDAYS! WHOO!
i love you Jesus deep down in my heart!<3

oh wait, we walked and walked but we couldnt get a studio to jam. sigh, wasted time but excercised. lol. had fun! and only 12 people came from my class today but hey, we played well for the interclass game. dint win but still.. yeah. :D
BYE!

oh haha

2006-10-23T22:41:00.000+08:00

i see LVs dangling on you and i'm wondering
if that made you or you made it .
your perfect body's out to show ,
you sure you've got clothes on ?
cause they don't look like it- rags to be exact.
i guess in this sense beggars are richer than you are counting in the fact that their clothes dont expose their skin thaat much.
maybe you're deprived and i'm starting to be sympathetic.
but wth, im just bored so i landed up with this post.LOL
okaye i'll end off , you poor poor superfical thing!

okaye, i repent.
i feel bad now, anyway if you're free :( www.celestechen.com ).
try to give her some attention too cause she's deprived.

it's more than you'll ever know

2006-10-22T02:05:00.000+08:00

to listen before you speak,
to understand before you react.

there's stuff that i wanna say, things of a serious note.
but yeah maybe tml. haha

WELL,
went fore D.A.R.E today.( whoo!)
it was fun i guess. my dg's darn cute esp. coach Val.
umm k.drama's fever's still on. JJH's just such a darling! :D
i reallly hope he's with Yoon EunHye! tehehehe.
changed blogskin. made one but abandoned it for this one. pretty sweeet aye?
though i really wanna replace the mary-kate and ashley thingy. heh
okaye time for bed.

SHALOM!BYE!

hello again

2006-10-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

oh my goosehead.

i just cancelled my whole post.
WHOLE LONG POST.
so daddy, i wasnt suppose to post it huh?
hahaha

anwyay a total summary of the whole thing.
went to the science centre and cycling with my budds and got myself cut .
if you wanna see the cut you're more than welcome to (: hahha
the cut brought me joy and im doting it.
i can literally see my fats. yellow tissues. hihi!

and i bought 2 KOREAN DVDS!
am therefore broke.
FULLHOUSE !
i looooveeee Li Yeong Zhi! ( rain)
and GOONG!
i lovveeee Joo Ji HOON ! ( xin)

and i bragged about why i should be a pretty korean 22/23/24 yearold lady there.
and attract rain. whoohoo! okaye lame.

i too wanted to put their pictures on but sadly i cant!
so yeah. and i stupidly closed the whole window and poof my entry's gone.

i too talked bout how emotional and imaginitive i am.
HAHAHA my inability to differenciate reality from media.
and how the dramas sorta affected my lifestyle. (:
OH and dont watch two drama at together, you'll get mixed up.
you hear? that's from me. experienced * knodds head
and you'll sorta wish you can really visit their worlds.

hmmmmm. i think i can jolly well get rid of all my english stuffies.
i'm turning korean baby, heh.

what else?

you know, all those korean stuffies are all so lovely doveys and tragic.
i kinda wish that'll happen to me too. wierd aye but i bet you guys think of those stuff tooo!. heh after watching those shows i kinda wish i was in love.
I wanna be in love. HEH HEH.

though, i dont really mean it. i dont wanna go through another heartbreak. hahah
AH WELLS. a well summarized piece.

GOODNIGHT! GOD BLESS! SHALOM! <3
signs off,
Mrs Bi.
HAHAHAHAH

give a dial, we love all things stupid.

2006-10-11T21:00:00.000+08:00

dance to this beat.

blasts the singer via my speakers..
the exams are officially over tml.
and hey, one month passed by so fast!

hmm.. now back to all the things that i want to do .

1. pen down songs
2. get more in tune with God and his word.#
3. get my butts down and excercise.
4. lose weight.#
5. watch at least 1 movie.$
6. get some new shirts.$
7. JAM and compile all the chords and lyrics aka get a band file.$
8. spent some quality time with mah pals.#
9. get maderight , made right.#
10. family time!#
10. get closer to all my grandparents and MY OWN LOVELY PARENTS!#
11. go for chalet. urhhm.$
12. get myself geared up for cambodia trip.$
13. get ready for head-start!#
14. do maths.#
15. do poa.#
16. read at least 1 shakespeare.
17. set up another blog. ( sara you know this )
18. improve my guitar skills
19. paint!
20. doodle a whole collection of collectables.
21. get artsy and go to the beinnale!#$
22. help myself to do the housework more often
23. morph into a neat girl
24. become less naggy
25. go for DARE!#
26. dare camp? $
27. room for my JUNIORS!#
28. beaching and cycling$
29. go out. stay out. NAH.$
30. study
31. watch all the korean drama that i fancy
32. people watch at orchard ( or anywhere else )
33. get some new skirt/pants/jeans$
34. get closer to jie and gor
35. respect my da yi more
36. prepare well for the prom emceeing
37. bake!
38. prepare meals
39. cheesecake for alvin and chalet peeps!
40. any other appointments from my favourite people.
41. improve my drill standard, 101% for GB.#

#- important
$- kahching
AMEN!

though i guess this isnt the real one yet aye?
people ( or at least me ) are just so fickle minded.
love/hate, a complete contradiction but so unseperatable.
it's but a thin, very thin line seperating the two.
<3

i love you jesus, forever will.
the best part's you love me too.

i'd like to move on sir

2006-10-04T18:44:00.000+08:00

make me happy again , please.
this isn't me no more.

( two posts today. read the other )

EOYS!

2006-10-04T14:19:00.000+08:00

know, i really do like to mug cause i feel accomplished after doing so and i do like it cause i know my brain's fuller than before. i can't really plan my time i admit but what's worst i HATE it when people try to plan my time for me or POKE into my affairs and give comments bout how i should handle things. I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THAN YOU DO. you DONT know me. you are always away! what do you know about me? you dont even care what , than why should you now?

GO on out with your friends outside , even when i'm sick all you could say was " don't fake la" and when i have terrible migrane headaches and had to stay at home " see she's always like that pon school" . WOW thanks brother, you're the BEST.
you never did said that " wei , im proud of you that you're a councillor." or " wow good you're a squad leader now " .

Who are you to say you know me when you dont even bother to ask me how my days were when i dont see you a few days in a row. Who are YOU to instruct me to do things when all you said when i got home is " go study la , best thing off the com and study. Mummy and Jie have been saying that you werent studying . OH and don't talk on the phone. "
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW?
you dint see me study. you dint see me nothing!
do you even ask me how my paper was? or whether im tired?
YOU NEVER PRAISED OR ACKNOWLEDGE ANY GOOD THAT I DID.
you keep on accusing that i have attitude problem and so on.
i must admit. i do have, but it's a rare case -unless im reeally pissed off.
Do you know you HAVE it worse than me?

" i dont like to repeat myself twice . "
that's your favourite phrase. wow, you are so cosure.

i guess you're a dude thats why you dont control your tone of voice. and i am quick to rebut. Hey, im admitting it and i know and i am asking God to change me. i've ask God to make me shut up when im angry . i',m still on it - working hard too.

thanks bro, so much so for being the BEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD.remember how i always wanted to be like you when im younger and having we the same birthday and us being 'twins' ? You dont know but maybe you dont admit it but you hurt me darn lots kaye. You dont even know it when i cried over daye nor when i'm emo over mrs lian's scoldings. See, you said you know me huh. i always try to talk to you. but it ends up in vain. This is your real sister speaking , the one who is now fifteen and no longer that sevem year old brat that you knew.

You didnt even seem keen enough to help me in my Poa. wait you're hardly even at home for me to ask and that's the reason why i gave up so many million years ago to ask you for help. even when i do you are so impatient and called me stupid.

God please help me cause this attitude is driving me absurb. and aye if your smart enough to read this thank you. and i dare say NOW you know joan your little sister a lil more now.

i shed a tear. and God you hear. (:
it's pretty traumatising to have your exams in the hall. hahah timothy's beside me. TOUFU FACE! LOL. papers have been fine i think. yeah grace and favour over me always. lord you love me. amen.

school, misses.

2006-09-29T13:00:00.000+08:00

hello, i miss school.
i woke up late and didnt wanna get whacked by mrs lian, you know. sigh, shall make good use of my day.

this week was umm good. (:
went to the airport last night with jiawen to mug.fab place , oh and there's this "Firman" guy. LOL, corny. hmmm and xiuwen's a good tuition teacher. (:

there's really nothing much to say.
I MISS YOU SCHOOLMATES and school's infrastructure and atmosphere.
And God IS GOOD. amen. exams are up.

BYE.

now i really dont envy those pretty girls who get all high and drunk at pubs wearing mangos to LV or what they say. that's not life. that's searching for love at all the wrong places.lord, bless them.

mighty morphin power rangers

2006-09-23T09:34:00.000+08:00

i'm starting to feel so much better now listening to hillsongs, was listening to the theme song of power rangers HAHAHHA i know, repeatedly over 3 times , early / first thing in the morning. so guess what's stuck in my head now?

GO GO POWER RANGERS!
POWER RANGERS ONLY FIGHT FOR GOOD!
YAY! * imitates mr wong cc's goofy smile *

gahahaha yeah i know, not that serious .
but honestly it isnt that bad.
good guitar rifts and drum beats. a cross of slipnot and busted.
hahahhahha pretty cool. like some 80s/70s rock band, maybe.
i'm hungry and proud of myself cause i woke up earrrly today. yay.
have a fabulous mugging day. alright seeya guys.

and all the praise goes out to you! (:
SHALOM, TAKECARE! :D

prefects speech and lady bumping incident

2006-09-21T18:58:00.000+08:00

HELLO! lol this is what i wrote straight after saying my trial election speech:

My speech was wierd.
My speech was off-point.
If i was really running for a campaign
i would have been shot dead.
i was more like counselling the board.
MY MIND WAS BLANK.
i didn't read my script.
oh my goose.
My juniors will so be shamed.
i need a new face now.
i can feel the title slip pass me like a passing facade.
sorry juniors/ mummy / daddy/ everybody.
:(
i should have been late.
GAH.
favour.
i need.
AMEN.

and after that while running after my bus i rammed into a big/*at indian lady.
HAHAHHAHAHA stupid i know. i apologised but she didnt seem satisfied. ah wells.
hope she aint hurt. alright EXAMS. MUG! bye.

i'm bouncing off the walls again, im looking like a ~~fool~~ again. woyoh. threw away my reputation. one more song for the radio station!
And my heart's still beating out of my chest and this town is still making me sick and every penny from my last paycheck, I've blown on you.
- sugarcult. <33

remind me

2006-09-16T19:15:00.000+08:00

Beloved, God doesn’t want you to be conscious of the lack you see outside you. He wants you to be conscious of the abundance within you because His kingdom is within you!

too little too late

2006-09-15T22:28:00.000+08:00

LALALALALALALLALALALALALA
LALALALLALALALALALLALALALA
LALALLALALALALALALALALALAA

you guys are a match.
pretty sweet, really.
(:

get her to go gb you fool!
ahhaha bye.

i'm still smiling.. really....sheesh.

the moon

2006-09-14T17:29:00.000+08:00

i am feeling rather nonchalant now
is that the right way to use that word?
gah. okaye bathe and off to work.

i'm starting to miss you , starting to ponder about us again. and you know how that makes me so fouled up inside. argh! one more year to go and i guess i won't see you again? yeapp. i guess. hahaha, teenage years..

oh and listen to jie jie joan, don't waste your time on bgr in secondary school. it's pretty much useless and hurting. yeapp. it may seem all so wonderful at first but the break-up and other woohas suck. duh. heh heh

GOD BLESS & MUG HARD!
loadsa love from up here. <3

HPB duties

2006-09-13T17:02:00.000+08:00

i'm now at HPB's office doing office work . heh heh cool experience and i know i'm slagging now to make an illegal blog entry. muaha. i'm supposed to do some research on smoking. ( i feel so tensed up whenever an adult walk pass now haha gosh oh mann ) okaye illegal illegal. umm. okaye im the only one slacking muaha. en-lin and evangeline ain't. LOl. urh okaye , i kinda like it here (:. it's quiet and well condusive but i dont plan to work here? umm yeah. okaye BYE! heh

school's alright. oh btw this is for GB not bling-bling.

collide-howie day
" i found i'm scared to know i'm always on your mind. "

okaye one more minute to knock off so everyone's slaggling now. HAHHA we're still not done with all the research yet but well it have been pretty fun ( to me) so far. teeheehee . i guess most of the staff koncked off alrready. well at least that lady who was supposed to guide us had and that senior advisor person seated behind me . alvin finally got to make his i/c. :D old boy!
and enlin just patted me on my shoulder to remimd me that it's knock off time. YAY. (: okaye this is stupid but i dont really wanna leave. i wanna dig my books out and study here. SO NICE. the air-con's just right. lol
okaye what else can i say.. umm.

i don't mind part-time, really.

okaye so lin's got tuition at seven. heh.

BYE.

joanzy wonzy

2006-09-11T18:46:00.000+08:00

today was fast (:
msn messanger's down for maint.? -SIGH.
ahwells i guess God just wants us students to do our revision aye? haha taking the fact that we have only 20(odd)DAYS to study. oh zomies. hahaha i've got one thing to say.
DAMN GAY.

LOL/SIGH but hey you're still you and that's cool. haha [:
loves and blessings to all!
all the best to the oldies for the Os! <33

school,

2006-09-10T21:11:00.000+08:00

School's starting tml and i'm not sure if im in a Yay mood or not. I don't know bout you but this holiday seemed to my like it was 2 weeks long haha which is good.i rest alot. (: and i just remembered i've got tons of homework undone. heh heh

honestly i'm sorry teachers but i'd rather do revision then homework hahaha right. okaye. umm i've got sorethroat and a slight fever and you know it aint exactly the best way to start a new term yes? hahaha but well i thank God that it's not during the holidays .And yes lord HEAL ME!(amen) okaye back to revisions. seeyou guys soon. jamming tml! teeheehee

goodbye gaming, slacking, long chitchats, computer, KOREAN DRAMA!, chocolates( till i recover that is ) and all the other woohas. i'll miss you.

she's the blade and you're just paper

2006-09-08T13:54:00.000+08:00

Computer= addictive
i should really resist myself cause i NEED to mug. sheesh. okaye one short post and i'm off haha

Resentment was once LOVE

i guess most of the times people just doesn't recieve the same amount of love in return of what they're giving and because of that it hurt their pride/ego. so it'll generate this thing call "resentment" to just replace that so called " embarrassment ". so i guess..

disturbed pride and ego = Resentment?

No?

hmmm..

hello im your friendly friend. : D

2006-09-07T13:29:00.000+08:00

since i've totally forgotten what i wanted to blog about i shall introduce myself to all you people. get excited.

Hello there completely strange unknown stranger who is reading my stupid blog entry of which you just happen to come across in this prodigal blogosphere. i assume you're human too and i think i'll like you. * megawatt smile * and i know one thing about you. you're from this dimension too. how fascinating ain't it? * winks *

I am Joan , i'm a singaporean chinese. No, im not a caucasian. i've got alil bit of indo blood. im nice, very nice.( hehe ) i've got a temper, boo hoo hoo. i've got high EQ. i like drums and drummers. i love music and i like bands. I've got the golden ticket to heaven. im CHRISTIAN (: i love God and my church.

okaye i decided not to continue cause im bored and i just refuse to be creative to state anything funny or should i say stupid. ha ha ha.
pissed. that's why. hello friend. bye friend.
blessed day ahead. (:

happy birthday AL!

2006-09-06T01:07:00.000+08:00

went for superteen's workshop earlier this morn. hahha i've got the motivation up alr! WHHHEEE. 12 points! AMEN! ((:

just came back from Alpha gathering at marina south. to think of it i drink too much soup and ate too little ingredients. heh heh. all in all i think seoul garden's better. (:

marina south= $12 + ( all the time wasted waiting for bus )+ dirty place + sweatiness + plus all the drinks that you'd buy cause water ain't provided [?x $1.30]= $16?

Seoul garden= $16.90?
AIRCON, CLEAN, DRINKS (free flow:D ), DESSERT!

there. hahaa get me?

met up with alvin, conrad and lester for lunch today.wasn't really what i expected it to be. i guess i cant really click with them well, yeahh. was bored. heh. met dawn at 2.30 shopped alil hahha met kaiping and jascinta at KFC .
we were mad. LOVE YOU GUYS! :D
okaye goodnight.
prom night stuff tml so sec4s hahhaa count yourselves blessed!

is it enough to love?

2006-09-04T12:02:00.000+08:00

so i guess today started off far from what i hoped it'll be .
I just wanna be alone now, at home. I know i should be contented to have my parents around me most of the time but it's just that .. i want some time alone.

time to be free and grow , think and dream .
It's essential to have time-out from your parents and family , friends too.
you know?

besides that, sometimes i wonder if you knew how much torment you make me go through.
i wanted you back , but i changed that thought cause i know you wanted to move on.
i wanted to be your friend, but you make it so hard. so so hard.
i wanted to be a stranger, but i cant cause of band, our friends-circle.
sometimes i do miss you, when you're around i feel elated. there's this adrenaline rush whenever i see you and that's what makes you special to me. But, im not asking for pity nor whatsoever you think im yearning for. I'm your friend, your band-mate.
and it sucks to be stuck in this emotional syndrome for more than a year already.

call me stupid or that i'm wasting my time.maybe i just think to much, i'll just take it this way. i guess i love you too much that's why. i guess that's why i dont wanna move on and keep myself rooted to this. i hate this. i hate how it seems that i can't live without you. the fact is that i can live without you, i can move on.
haha see, i just contradicted myself. i guess i do hurt you too, i guess you have your own reasons too. God bless us. though , i dont know why you missed my call.
i guess it's alil too late now, (:

things on a lighter note!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE JIE :D
baked a cake for her yesterday haha here take a look

LOL, to me it's a good attempt. haha
love you jie!

to think of it, i have only myself to blame for this.
but how do you blame someone who is already dead to condemnations?
hahhaa i'll get over this.
till then. love reigns. <3

the wedding singer

2006-09-01T20:57:00.000+08:00

Grow Old With You - Adam Sandler

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you

Undoubtingly one of the best movie ever .
spent most of my day in bed today. lol , slaggy poo .GB tml (:
and yeapp, love's when you feel comfortable crying to that person.
hmm? hahhaa
i love you

:D

hippy jippee holie dayie

2006-08-31T16:46:00.000+08:00

the holidays are here , :D
and it's time to mug my ass off.
yeapp. im serious, havent been doing well all year so it's definately time to buck up. no more prefect stuffies no more procastinations no more stupid stuff!
haha teachers day concert was alright though it was messy at first. yeapp, the dance. LOL! okaye forget that. went to see mr lim (:
that old hag! lol nah, that cool teacher. love him to bits! he got bitten by some insect can. so poor thing! ah wells.

doubt any teacher would get to read this but well.
HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!
and a friggin wonderful holiday to one and all!
LOL! :D <3

ohoh and amen!

To my beloved Giraffe . From your Beloved Jelephant.

2006-08-29T18:40:00.000+08:00

things that makes us laugh our bums off ; things that makes us friends forever! I LOVE YOU ENLIN / LIN-AAY / ER-LER / LIN !

and like that song goes " friends are friends forever , if the Lord's the Lord of them. " Always in my heart, our friendship will NEVER part. Just imagine us in heaven meeeting every now and then sipping english tea and talking stupid. LOL , we've got FOREVER! hahahha plus we can always sing and jump and do cool stuff for God. YAY! zeeeheeehhee.

To that girl who taught me much.
Love you! <3

-.- lol forget it then , take care (:

2006-08-24T19:42:00.000+08:00

i don't exactly know how to describe how i'm feeling right now but
i guess it's good that i said what i needed to say , after so so long.

(:
i'm off and i do find it wierd how i've been speaking in codes lately.
i guess im getting a lil closed up this days , ah wells.
great days people and hey,my blogosphere's flat. <3

helllllOOO

2006-08-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

thing's been pretty alright lately (:
im just lazy to blog.
hahah reply to tags:

Zann: aww thanks babe ((:
Tricia: LOL mann im speechless you kukunanapoktoomuch
sophia: lol hello , noted (:
yuanying: hey , you're so welcomed! :D will miss you guys so much!
jasmine: AUNTIE! HAHAHA

alright im offffff <3

(:

2006-08-20T20:02:00.000+08:00

joan's back and she's finally tasting freedom after 2346567347 days.

:D

though , i've got a pile of homework to finish and math/eng test tml.
wheeeezy. DADDY GOD'S GOOD. ((:
today's sermon's great , will share it with you guys soon.
lol, alright im off. loves!

ohoh, ROD (gb too) WAS FABULOUS wurrhx!
HAHAHAHHAHAHA :D:D:D:D
Jesus , YOU LOVE ME.
and me too. yes. ((:

exhausted

2006-08-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

to be honest , i'm friggin' tired.

VERY TIRED IN FACT. and to think im going to have a really long day tml and the day after. I've got word power and math test btw. im dead meat for sure. oh, homework's not done too. all thanks to prefects stuff. ahh, it's talking up so much of my time. ): GAHHH! ah wells. after this week i'll have the freedom to do what so ever i want cause by then i would have finished everything including Gb rod. YAY!

im feeling all icky now.
haven't bathed since im home like at 5.30pm?
yeah i know. i've been rushing my work.
sheesh. and i've not decided what to wear for ROD.

whats more, i've got that monthly thing.
ah wells. forgive my foul moods and my shagginess.
and my disorderliness cause i seriously amm to tired to even bother.
HELP!

GOD BLESS ME!
amen.

umm

2006-08-15T19:32:00.000+08:00

well i dont know why but i've got the urge to go private and umm moving to livejournal. ah wells. today was pretty good but i'm not feeling any better .
lol ah wells.

loveys (:

hello diary once again

2006-08-14T22:05:00.000+08:00

God, it's amazing how i'm feeling so calm now.
i know i feel like crying but it's just suprising that i ain't
i guess it's time i began to walk bravely and embrace some truths

good things got to end

self-denial i might add.
after all this months of wishful thinking and i would say i was blinded by infatuation. heh. and to think i used to boast bout how i would be so stable bout relationship issues. im but another victim of teenage love . Shit. haha .

so hey, i'll be honest.
i do understand now that we wont be together again.
sorry for being darn stupid all this while hahahahhha
but hey friend, don't mind right?
cause we're like buddies hor . :D

hello world, NATCAMP 06

2006-08-13T19:01:00.000+08:00

National camp was GOOOD.
Learnt loadsa cheers and made friends from the other UG campers in Singapore and mann must i say the camp opened up my eyes to all sorts of wierd personalities. I guess the unfamilarity made me feel a lil out of place and umm, very much unmotivated to work things out in camp.
now for that im sorry. to my teammates for not participating to my fulliest in the various activities and for being a lil introvert at times. heh heh

BUT hey, they're but bygones now.

Did SOC ( obstacle course ) , rappelling , DRAGON BOAT :D , SURVIVAL VILLAGE , ARCHEY , RANGE SHOOTING and of course many more. It was AWESOME i would say.
mann miss wong was right when she said it was gonna be fun.

alright pictures time.

i've got a feeling loadsa pics are missing. like WTH. ): spent half an hour loading them but ah wells. (:
BYE, BLESSED WEEK AHEAD!

national day yay :D

2006-08-09T21:52:00.000+08:00

happy national day y'all!

I dare say im proud to be a Singaporean and i know it means nothing to just leave this remark hanging from my lips so i vow that oneday i WILL make Singapore proud in a way or another. Well , lets start from the fundamentals.
1. GETTING MY CHINESE RIGHT.
2. FREAKING DO MY SCHOOL WORK

to be honest this year's programme's pretty boring.
hahaha but still it's extra special cause it's gonna be the last gig in the stadium, S.R.NATHAN is COOL! he shaked the lil Kiddies hands! so cool! hahaha ah well
happy birthday my dearest Singapore.
I love you ! <3

besides that , today have been a rough day
my eyes are soaked and painful and i have to pack my bag for camp tml.
i'll miss you guys, love you! :D

tocampwithabrokenheart.butJESUSgavemeanewon.

(:

2006-08-07T21:26:00.000+08:00

there's so many things that i want to post.
rants and happy thoughts.
but yeah , i have bad memory .

all those thoughts seem to disappear when i blog.
but i guess that's good cause all my post would be umm fresh and are of my upmost feelings and thoughts.

it just dawned on me that adolence's love's very much like sibling's mutual love.
it may just seem that you understand each other well.
maybe? well at least that's what i have in mind now.

i guess it's just darn cool to know that you'll always have a friend to hear you out when you're really troubled. somebody who'll call you silly but accept you for who you are. someone who says : hey, i really think you should move on. and someone who says: I love you , and that's why i want you to think about it clearly.

when's the last time you actually told and thank your friend for their care and love for you? i guess they dont show it , but they love you and they'll never want any bad to befall upon you. likewise , friends arent perfect. be contented. cause beneath all those bad is a heart of gold. and you'll soon find that you can never replace this love with parental love nor boy/girl love. I guess only God's love can replace it. haha he's afterall our friend too!and our daddy.

i just wanna say i love you beth.
i only want the best for you.
<3

lament

2006-08-04T01:43:00.000+08:00

YES i'm still up on the computer at such an ungodly hour doing prefect stuff.
all thanks to my procrastination and me being a sleep glutton .
( fell asleep while "studying" )
gahh ):

Festival Of Praise, TONIGHT!
still not sure whom i'm to go with but yeah God knows.
the weekends are here but honestly it's getting packer each week.
okaye this week : thanksgiving sat morning , CIP sat afternoon , sat night SLEEP/HW
sunday morning church, sunday afternoon shop ,
sunday midafternoon HW/ packing of bag for camp sunday night DOTA.

LOL it's counted as pack kaye.
used to have only GB on saturdays which takes up only up to half a day.

OH , even fridays are busy.
TODAY: drill , 230pm
cambodia trio interview, 3pm
prefects' stuff , 430pm
f.o.p , 7.00pm

i have tons of homework overdued and i know teachers have been complaining .
i havent been really been able to catch up with some subjects and yes , pretty much screwed. but i've planned to settle everything before national camp starts(10-13 aug) which means i wont be able to spend the national day holies with you guys. ):
CATCH UP REALLY SOON! i miss you guys alot. esp. enlin. gah.

right back to prefects' stuff.
i've yet to get my blazer and panty hoses and shoes and whosoever that's needed.
gosh, IM SUCH A PROCASTINATOR!
HELP ME FATHER!

all these things i've done - the killers

2006-08-01T21:19:00.000+08:00

so many things happened today.
HAHHAHA darn memorable.
bethanie's dramatic fall and her crys , LOL
mann i love bethanie . darn cute i'll say! (:

played drums for chapel .
prefects' meeting. wait i seriously forgot what i wanted to blog about.
hmm , umm. tricia called me a chiemy pie and that my posts are poetic and chiem.
right. youjin said my blog's interesting( kinda?).

LOL. EGO. heh heh

TURKEY FOR THANKSGIVING! <3
oh love you youjin(turkey) (:
drink more ginseng thinsy. BOOST ME UP .
*claps *

faith , like a child.

2006-07-29T14:27:00.000+08:00

------------------APRIL BABY-------------------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool.Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed.Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confident.Sensitive.Positive Attitude. Thinking generous.Good memory.Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer evryone upand/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneselfand others.Understanding. Fun to be around.Outgoing. Hyper.Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girlcrazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling.Systematic.hottbut has brains. If you repost this in 5mins, a cutiethat's caught your eye will introduce themself andyouwill realize that you are very much alikein thenext 2days.

----------FEBRUARYBABY --------------------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.Attractive. sexiest out of everyone.Temperamental.Quiet, shy and humble. Honest and loyal.Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom.Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Toosensitive andeasily hurt. Gets angry really easily butdoes notshowit. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn.Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes.Sharp.Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic onthe inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.Spendthrift.Tries to learn to show emotions. Repostthis in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

copied this from tricia's blog.
i dont believe in that chain letter thing BUT hey!
it's pretty accurate. go figure .
my birthday's in april.

Went for my church's praise and worship session at indoor stadium yesterday night.
IT WAS SUPERB. God's spirited moved mightily. AMEN.
((:

MY GOD IS SO GOOD!

26 jumy 2006

2006-07-26T20:56:00.000+08:00

to that sweety pie who suprised me with F.A cookies and played my fav. song on Gm radio:

HAPPY BLESSED 13th BIRTHDAY MEOW MEOW!

to be honest.
she's one unique junior.
(:

LOVE YOU!
and yes, be good.

there's A class for this

2006-07-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

I know i said guys who play LAN(games) have no life, but i'm biting back my words.

Dota IS fun!
now lets hear those lan addicts shout amen.
hehe
school have been so darn fun lately. hahahah COOL STUFF.[ yes-ser! and smileys ]
i've got so much to say but i'm lacking time so i'll cut things short.

Sayonara big bird.

reply to tags:
YOUJIN: joan's 167
TRICIA & SARA : LOL alright will edit it (:
ALVIN: AYE SON! hahah good la, sneakers. haha
WEIPING: I dint? woops sorry will link you soon. hee
YOUJIN: hahah alright will leave a big fat
sitting place for you. don't worry. :D
naomi: HEY! you're welcomed . it's great that you like it (:

sugar, we

2006-07-22T22:09:00.000+08:00

carve it on a stone and throw them in the deep , dark ocean
that i may never find it nor see it , not even till the day i die
i don't yearn to know the truth behind factual lies .
it's contradictory but true.

know the boundaries of emotions , stay clear.
beseech each watchful eyes - your soul tells you he still does.
now then, relieve the days in paranoia

days away and the leaves are falling.
have you not seek the need of letting go?
or is your heart anchored down badly miserably low?

no. maybe not.
for the sun shines and the moon still reflects
the Glory's still high on by.
i'll say, it's the gift of redemption.

there. my thoughts well penned.
felt a lil emo and agitated just now.
just had that volumous urge to shout and rant at everybody, well except grandma.
she's here! YAY! oh wells.
drill today was pretty good, had really fun aka stupid moments. xD
GB ROCKS. hee ((:

lord my soul cries out

2006-07-20T20:17:00.000+08:00

hey , thanks lin .
okaye so im one silly mama.
forget what i said on my all love-sick post.
(:

i think too much, amen.
LOL i bet God's like joan ah joan haiyoh * sniggers.

your light will shine when all else fade.

2006-07-19T20:44:00.000+08:00

you know i love you , i'll always love you.

i dont know how true that can be, but i trust that i can and i will. (:
not by my efforts but by God. cause you know how much i hate short-term relationships , im just not into that. love is an eternal issue.
though there's loadsa times when i feel really discouraged and emo but i know i'll get over it and i feel so much more after that.

it's wierd, ain't it?
haha God's still the best yes!
AMEN.

Everlasting , Your light will shine when all else fades
Never ending,Your glory goes beyond all fame
And the cry of my heart ,Is to bring You praise
From the inside out, Lord my soul cries out
i just love this song. [:
YOU'RE COMING BACK ; IM EXCITED!
mykingmykingmylordmysaviourmyDADDYGOD((:

my best friend

2006-07-18T22:02:00.000+08:00

felt kinda bad today. showed attitude to a lil girl . yeapp. i repent.
aye , i have bad days too know. i ain't no superman. so yeah. forgive me.

class was interesting today. HAHAHAH so many dumb stuffs
anyway pics :

bethanie, we're gonna be best friends forever.
i know this sounds realy corny but i speak facts. one day you'll be my bridesmaid or some sort. hahaha we had so much fun together! all our tiny tandrums and silly times. you're like my real sister. always there to listen and correct me. always there to give me straightforward comments , to wake me up or some sort. though we get on each other's tails at times but we grow from it and love even deeper. now, that's what make our friendship most unique.

I LOVE YOU! :D

( so okaye i didnt know i linked the wrong url so too bad. sorry. (: )

pimple pain!

2006-07-16T20:19:00.000+08:00

there's a pimple beneath my nose which hurts. and i mean HURTS.

went to FCBC's service today with kaiping , sheila mohmoh and gang.
it was interesting. hahaha but well i know my home's still newcreation church. :D

i guess God opened up my eyes to realise that God's presense is in every church.
regardless of what or where it is. He's the "boss" and he, like your daddy is holding your hand in the midst of all the strangerhood.He's always there, everywhere!
and it's even more comforting to know that he loves you and you can feel it .
mann . it made me feel so much at home there.

oh, and it's cool to know that there's always a gb family to hold on to.
even better that God's favour is ALWAYS with you.
amen!

after sports day

2006-07-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

means house won. (:
okaye now whoever said that mean's gonna lose can come and lick my toes. yay.
so i dint go to school this morning , because i thought today was saturday.
i messaged the stupidest msg to daye today bout why im not attending chapel practise and no tricia im not typing it down. heh heh. crap im suffering the aftermath of thee embarrassment.

tricia wants me to type this and she is screaming this thru the loudspeaker and persuading me to type this down so i am: umm * giggles * QUICK! why you lick my toes so long one. I KNOW THIS SOUNDS STUPID BUT I KNOW I AM STUPID. aye gor you cut you hair ah? aye dont type this ah if not it is gonna be so funny la. I NEED TO PEE. omg, what you type ah read to me ah.i thought why you type the sentence so slow. AH I NEED TO PEE. are you still typing? i go toilet. you wait ah , i go toilet. okaye ah. DONT PEEP!

tricia sounds dumb on the phone. HAHAHHAA
okaye nothing beats me right enlin?
i'll giggle non-stop whenever im on the phone with her. gahh. (:

and yes i dont think this entry make any sense.
wheee. happy weekend guys. :D
oh and hello retards!

reply to tags:

Ding: pink's our favourite colour aint it? :D lol yes whatever
ZANN: whats with your AZNN? hahah hello
JESMINE:oh okaye. haha
Karen: haha i wasnt used to the bus timing so i went earlier. lol
TrIcIa: we're alike but im not as stupid as you la.HAHAHAH :D yay!
chesna: hahaha you'll know someday *winks
youjin:lol so sweet of ya , thanks babe (:
shawn: hahaha you added me alr right? lol

giggly love entrie gee

2006-07-09T21:46:00.000+08:00

things have been unbelievable lately.
thee last minute ndp tickets ,
that untimely reminder and that camp form.
mann am i blessed, BLESSED! (:

i feel so little girlish.
it's like whenever you're online , i'd take 10 mins to settle down 20 miniutes to fish things out to say to you and go all crazy while waiting for your reply and urh pretend to be perfectly okaye when you're offline when inside im screaming ( AWW.. MANN! COME BACK ON! :/ )i wouldnt deny the fact that i feel darn stupid. hahaha
but this is love aye? HAHA, oh and whenever i message you i'll get so nervous that i'll leave my phone somewhere and run away till it is "safe" to check if there's a reply.

you have no idea how much you make me feel like a little girl.
i don't blame you , duh. haha it's quite an eccentric experience really.
so long and good night my friend and i hope i made you smile a lil cause you sure did make me smile. haha

great week ahead people.
cause God's love is everything and eternal which means it's NEVER go away. even if you commited the darkest horniest baddist worst things. he love therefore he forgave(:
SHALOM!

though i really wanna talk, it'l be better for you to rest(:

surveyyyx

2006-07-07T21:37:00.000+08:00

Was tagged by TRICIA TANTAN to do this.

Seven random facts about me:
1. i need a bath now
2. my grandfather passed away on 12 june 2002
3. i like emo . esp emo hair.
4. i feel like playing the guitar after i bathe
5. JESUS LOVES ME
6. i wear contacts
7. i dont think i can still keep serious for a loonng while.

Seven things that scares me:
1. chinese exams
2. disasterous situations (duh!)
3. YOU! :D
4. heavy hiphop songs
5. heavy heavy too heavy screamo songs
6. her singing
7. bright pink undies

Seven songs at the moment:
1. crying- sugarcult
2. hips dont lie - shakira
3. colour me cliche - cute is what we aim for
4. anything but ordinary - avril
5. goodbye to you - michelle branch
6. at the cross - hillsongs
7. we'll be burnin'- sean paul

Seven things i like:
1. Listening bout God's love
2. laughing / rubbishing
3. FAMILY!
4. spending time with my loves
5. having days well spent
6. all the other things i have in mind
7. DRUMS/ MUSIC/ JAMMING/ MADERIGHT!

Seven bad habits:
1. procastination
2. lazing around
3. being too witty
4. bad seating posture ( mum wants me to be demure too)
5. L-A-Z-Y
6. not studying as much as i should
7. condemning and feeling emoxXx

Seven victims:
1. LIN-AAY
2. SARA
3. ZANN
4. WEIDE
5. TANIALIN
6. JESMINE
7. XIAXUE ( yeah , whatever lol )

hello football!

2006-07-01T22:46:00.000+08:00

led gb devotion for the first time today , :D
amen and amen to that. it went grreat.
thanks linaay , ruth. oh and stayin back with me to do my chinese.
heh

drill was good too.
but yeah can be loadsa better.
church tml and two major matches tonight.
ENGLAND! BRAZIL! GERMANY!

(:
rooney , ahpui , ballack !

you make me smile so much, so so much .

haha attempted song.

2006-06-30T23:37:00.000+08:00

and all that i wanted was to have a friend to hold .
and all the torments that i've been thru ,
i've suffered loss and i've yet to break through .
It hurts , this self-inflicted wounds , i can't pick myself up .
i need you , Jesus - my hope is in you .

through the darkness of these valley
i will turn to you my Jesus .
Down with the sickness ,
i'll cast them on your throne.
i lift up my voice to sing ,
in you i have everything
For your love's the light of my path.

My Hope is in you ,
My hope is in you .
Jesus , i know you'll bring me through.
Your Love is in me ,
Your love is in me .
Jesus carried all my sins on the cross,
and by he's blood am i , reborned.

theblesspassion

2006-06-25T20:38:00.000+08:00

once made righteous by the blood of Jesus everything that wasn't right before will be made right . Why? cause we're made right with God and that being our blood bought right to it. amen (:

the sermon today was brilliant.
we're blessed cause we're redeemed from the curse and it's not by our self-effort.
Christianity isnt a religion cause religion require us to work , work and work even more to get to heaven or in other words get into favour with the gods. But Christianity isn't. We can come freely to God like a child to his/her father . ( heb 4:4-16 ) we're not under the law. that's before Jesus's death and resurrection .Through Jesus's blood that washes away ALL OUR SINS OF OUR ENTIRE LIFE, We're under the Grace covenant now! and that's the reason why Jesus came for us. (galatians 5:4, 2 corintians 3:5-9 ) and if you think it was easy for God to let him son down to suffer , YOU'RE WRONG. It was a very painful decision, would you in your right mind sacrifice your son?
and hey, Jesus is God too. He could have said no. BUT did he? he didn't , and it's because HE LOVES YOU. and in return of this love , we love him back. IT's not by our love that we touched Him in any way.

SIT STILL until you know the answer ( to your problems ) cause your redeemer( Jesus ) will not rest till it is settled ( fear not, cause he will solve the problem for you.Remember , he's hand is bigger than yours . ) Ruth 3:18

alright , i'll end here by saying this.
we're HIGHLY FAVOURED and DEEPLY LOVED by Jesus and that he makes all things beautiful in he's time. so FEAR NOT; for we serve a GOOD GOD. amen , amen.
BLESSED WEEK AHEAD YA'LL and goodbye late mornings!

ndp rehearsal

2006-06-24T21:02:00.000+08:00

no wonder i'm hearing so much aeroplanes zooming pass my estate.
that ndp rehearsal. crap , it's one of those days that i'm missing you like mad.
it's around this time last year that we met aye? hmm.. talking bout the series of dreams i've been having bout you. gosh, i wish you were online. but i know i dont have that sorta courage to talk to you . i should have known , then i wouldn't have ..

anyway, CHURCH TML!
pastor prince's back! YAY! :D
oh manzo , I CAN'T WAIT.
ohoh ate durian today. stinked up the whole place. whee.
though, im still not loving that taste. heh.
my lil junior ailing's a cutie. hahahha
" do we need to memorise the whole prefects' handbook? "
she puts a smile on my face. i feel all jie-jie-ish (:

oh and you wouldnt believe it, he came online.
HAHHAHA :D AMEN.
still i dont think i'll dare to talk so wth. heh
loves!

i see?

2006-06-23T23:56:00.000+08:00

school's reopening soon and frankly im kinda happy.
all the bummering's gotten me into becoming an airhead.
love's not a feeling cause feelings waver but love don't. i guess yeah. infatuation's the key answer there?
i hate it when my mind's just empty. everything's just wierd. i rather keep my mind preoccupied with lame-ass stuff or schoolwork , prefect stuff maybe. it's so much more productive and less hurtful. i guess my role's heavier now with 4 juniors to shower care for.i'm gonna do my best to raise them up as stars. i will and i can.

played warcraft today ,mann am i addicted to it and gee, how time flies!
now i know why guys are addicted to dota // lan games. :D
well, leisure's important. though too much will indeed kill.
went for lunch and window shopping with beth in the afternoon .
if you're going bugis and you're interested in trying the new japanese ice cream that cost 4 bucks. PLEASE DON'T TRY IT. just look and walk away. it stains your tongue and gives you a headache.

hahahha oh wellos.
drink loadsa water sir ,you're still the person i'm looking forward to see on national day. im sorry bout that drumming incident.but hey , you did well. im serious. Jesus loves you , his beloved too.

Far away - Nickelback

small bra wah wah

2006-06-21T23:53:00.000+08:00

http://img466.imageshack.us/img466/1784/copy1ofpicture317tu.jpg
that super small bra we saw at carrefour on sunday. it's from japan and it cost $2.95? hahaha A65 , it's the smallest i've seen so far. hmm, im wondering if it was meant for chiwawas or something cause if not i guess japanese chics are just dang small.

ohwellos , jamming tml and i'm loving it! :D
i guess you knew when i was jealous , that look on your face just tickles me. you knew when i was envious too huh. but you still came back and that's why i love you. kinda. maybe. alil. more. every. day. HEH

okaye here goes

2006-06-19T01:24:00.000+08:00

if it's an infatuation, im sorry my dear.

they say if it's love, it won't fate away easily -no?
it's kinda funny how i'm always reflecting bout things in the toilet,
esp when i'm showering. it seems as if it's the perfect time to do so.hmm, wierd.
anyway, Pastor Lawrence shared a great deal of a sermon based on " beholding the Love of Jesus" . None of self, all of God. Feeling's not faith, your faith's always there irregardless of your feelings. amen and amen to that.

happy ahpa day! chicken rice dinner was good.
Seah street, GO TRY! it's cheap too.
CHIN CHIN HAINANESE CHICKEN RICE.
dang, i should get paid for advertising.

lurve.

2006-06-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

i'll never forget those sneaky little giggles, i'll keep them deep inside my heart.
to be honest i'm still amazed at how far we've been thru, we're like, cool!
haha , you make me feel like the luckiest person on earth to have known you . we're gonna be friends forever.and i mean it. i love you ! :D

feel you always .

2006-06-15T12:14:00.000+08:00

a picture frame with no boundaries
colours that never fades
a gush of a million expressions
those words that i'd never say

i'm pulling myself together ;
I'VE GOT SO MUCH TO SAY!

soccer frenzy

2006-06-11T23:13:00.000+08:00

england vs. paraguay 's match was such a disappointment, really.
with that element of soccer teamwork spirt missing.
i doubt any of them would win this year. oh wells.
okaye,i'm not that good at soccer nor recognising soccer player's names nor their numbers.
21 looked like 27 valdez looked like haldivos.
okaye go on , tease me. hahaha

england made a huge mistake to send owen out. a bigger mistake to keep crouch.
he's good, but too much leg space for attackers to get the ball and he made loadsa misses. england could have scored much more than just a stinky 1 mann (whats more an own goal.) if owen was still in there. cause owen was always on guard as striker until he left- feeding england's golden oportunity to paraguay .
okaye , disagree with me. you should. oh and i must say both team's goalkeepers are GOOD. oh-yeahh!

trinidad&tereno vs. sweden was a better match.

okaye,stupid things as usual.

i'm sorry but nelson valdez reminds me of hellboy oohoh! and that mexican referee reminds me of ompa lompa! HAHAHAHHA

> okaye dont look like. fine. hahaha oh wells .

The Lord's love is everlasting. whoosh. AMEN!. ((:
muchloved.

abnormal

2006-06-07T23:15:00.001+08:00

umm yeah , so i see.

You Are 36% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul.

You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess.

You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection.

You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement.

You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

How Abnormal Are You?

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times.

You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained

You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun.

How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

i wanted elmo. sighh.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.

And that's marriage - with the right person.

You're serious about settling down some time soon.

Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

What's Your Ideal Relationship?

yeah, whatever.

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

What Kind of Seducer Are You?

oh okaye.

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!

How Weird Are You?

so lil, but cool anyhow. : D

You Are A Jealous Ex

You're not quite over your past, and you are hurt that your ex is moving on
You're no longer in love, but you're not done with being pissed
Jealous of any happiness that comes your ex's way, you still can't let go

What Type of Ex Are You?

i'm honest.

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person.
But when you don't get your way, watch out.
Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want.
Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

How Is Your Inner Child?

COOL

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause.
You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them.

Power: force beams from your eyes

Which of the X-Men Are You?

dude , im like.. blind?

You Failed 8th Grade Math

Oh no, you only got 4/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

fact, but i was bored and sick of those sick qns like WTH! ):

You Are 38% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well.
In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

How Evil Are You?

WHHEE ((:

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,123,950

At What Price Would You Sell Out?

geee..

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Nice doggy."

What Will Your Famous Last Words Be?

R-I-G-H-T .

that's the end. loveys and GOODNIGHT! ((:
it've been a rough day , oh boy.. * mumbles

adnormal

2006-06-07T23:15:00.000+08:00

umm yeah , so i see.

You Are 36% Abnormal

How Abnormal Are You?

i found me .

2006-06-04T13:38:00.000+08:00

Found yourself yet?

yeah, i've found me .
Tell me if it's true,
Everybody goes through this period of teenage uncertainty.
That wanting to be like everybody else,like those popular kiddos down orchard road yes?
Or maybe that wanting if thee perfect boyfriend whom you know your ladies will be jealous of.(viceversa)
hmm.. howabout that envious and 'i-so-wanna-be-that-girl-!'feeling while you're browsing through friendster profiles?

come on, it's time to admit it alright. lol

Well, here's me.
i've been through that, i'll admit.
i've overlooked myself, often blinded by those material needs.
often wondering why i'm not like those rich/pretty girls hanging around mountain pile of handsome boyschool hunks or rich popular girlschool girls. those cool bitcy nanas who wears branded apparels and so on. well, maybe their born like that. who knows and mann, i dont care. haha

I'm wondering if they're really really happy.
they've got tons of friends and you know you dont have to be a rocket scientist to figure that out. Monkey, they've been to clubs a billion times before their 18 and it's supposed to be COOL. yes, yes. they've got many boyfriends and guys going ridiculously attracted to their extra-ordinary bodies. oh-lala.
But well, how many of their friends will still be there for them when their in need?
how many of those dudes really love them for who they are. how would you know if they
're really happy and that those picture perfect smiles are for real and not plastered on?

oh, and if their home's as comfy and warm like yours?

money can't buy you family happiness nor can looks buy you true love .
money can't buy you real good friends and duh, money cant get you into harvard.
Well, technically you can get into harvard but you know you've got no merits fit for it.

in some sense money's a pollutant . oh, fame too.

you know, im really blessed.
and i'll say you guys should count your blessings EVERYDAY. ((:
I have friends i can hold on to for life. trust me, definately.
though im not popular nor am i really pretty nor rich ,
i have a big warm family and friends who accepts me for who i really am.

im not cool nor am i funny. But, i'm accepted.
I dont have to act like somebody else to make people like me , just like you miss.
you dont have to pretend to be someone else to seek friends/love or whatsoever.

and you think 'cool-assed' people are stable. they have their flaws and insecurities too you know. that's them -they're born like that ( some! )
many of them have bad/sad family backgrounds thats why their like that.
now, your normal ( i hope. )

i know you guys think those 'perfect people' on friendster's really idealistic ,
Hey, their insecure too. they cant really secure their friends, they struggle to find true finds too. and mind you drinking / smoking doesnt give you a 'cool' label nor does it clear your doubts.

i guess by now you'll get the point.
i might catch afew flags but well it's alright. (:
i hope i cleared a mind or two, find yourself and LOVE yourself.

if you're caught in it, step out of it.
if your born in it, stay in it.
you'll know when you really learn to love and accept yourself ,
you dont have to please anybody.

(:
lets end of by saying no matter what Jesus will still love me.
that makes me smile . :D

randomposit

2006-06-04T00:03:00.000+08:00

im kinda into short blog entries haha
korean frenzy.
missed gb-bad cramps.
delirium over the hedge.AMEN!

okaye i guess i'll just end off with this:

awww.. hahahha
alright thats the end.
loveys. CHURCH TML! YAY! :D

food poisoning.

2006-05-31T19:12:00.000+08:00

NEVER drink overdued water.
trust me, you'll regret it.
drowsy spells , vomiting and diarrhea- for the WHOLE day.
Gee, how great.

pw presentation tml and i've not even started.
oh wells, amen and amen.

all into one

2006-05-25T23:26:00.000+08:00

Learning JOurneys today was AWESOME!
3 cheers for Mr Razeed Chan , guide of the year 2005.
he sure do live up to his reputation! hahah cooooL.
hahaha never knew f3/4 could be of such joy and laughter-miss tay too.
she's pretty nice lol (:

ACJC WAS GRREATT!
daddy shawn , mobil hahah whatever and mummy darren! :D
oh wells , cant really remember what happened to me anyway.
i'm beginnining to be r-e-ally lazy in bloggin. oh wwells.
last day of school tml , yay and boo.

oh , i touched bird poo today.
gooey, like glue.it was gross,duh.
relieved Joy 4-1 for mrs wong today. mann ARE they nice people!
smiles for all the retarded funny times.
lovey you guys! WHEE

hsakjav

2006-05-20T01:39:00.000+08:00

it's gonna be two am soon , ACJC crossroads tml at nine till five.
okaye , with much left unsaid.
i bite my lovely goodbye.
* BITES

awesome jamming spree'o lady bang a dang oh. and lovey doveys.

2006-05-18T18:24:00.000+08:00

blogger doesnt like me .
this is a repost , argh.

well i shant talk bout how my exam was cause yeah it's predictable .
im not really looking forward to post-exam week,
and honestly i'll miss the exams.
nope, im not kidding.

Jammming today was awesome .
we played generally well :D
it was noisy , filthy , wackily retardedly cool . ( not really but yeah )
but well i know deep inside daddy's smiling at me , lol.
i know he's proud of me . i'm drumming for JESUS! amen.

failed to photoblog cause blogger doesnt like me,
SO TOO BAD.
oh and imageshack is so much trillion tonsy better than photobucket.
goodbye photobucket!

oh and hows the blogskin?
sweet aye?
SMEELLS FLY from here! ( i needta bathe)
and im hungry.
hahahah enlin and sara's lingos. WHOO.
thats all,

HAPPY LONG WEEKEND!
in love in death and in the walks of heaven
joan, joams . yeah , whatever.(:

i will survive

2006-05-12T13:57:00.000+08:00

8 more days till the end of the exams :DD

have been studying at aljunied mac , it's awesome fun i tell you!
but yeah , we did study so yeapp. we're mature childish peeps see haha
i dont think im making much sense but who cares. wait, you mean you do?
gahhhh im wondering bout POA and CHEM.

English was pretty alright though im not too sure bout scoring.
chinese was. HAHAHA
maths was actually kinda easy.
but there wasnt enough time and lack of practise duh.
sigh. oh wells, learn joan learn!
social studies was alright. vomited all that i know. :D

taking a break now, *pants
attempted to stay over at mac yesterday but well yeah dint make it.
too tired, nobody's staying and there was some chee kor bek uncle staring ..
bleugh. so much for my masterplan. but well, my bed's worth it. haha
okaye i guess this is it.
all the best you guys!

love, loves!
JOams.

mann hanging around you makes me feel darn stupid.
esp when you keep throwing erasers at me and tricking me.i know i catch well but well nvm. i threw fries in your hair and left salt on your neck that you're totally oblivious about.oh, not forgeting that packet of sauce that hit your nose! HAHAH coolies.

HAHA go pastor!

2006-05-01T18:29:00.000+08:00

im not wearing my specs so i dont really know what im typing hahaha oh wells. ((:
i remembered something my pastor said yesterday that i find is awfully true;
It's something like this :

" sometimes people buy things they dont need to show off to people who dont care.. "

HAHAHA
then again forget the hugs-forgetyou.
loadsa pictures to upload but yeah bo xi kang.( no time in dialect? )
HAPPY MAYDAY! :D

my unforgetable fabulous fifteen birthday.

2006-04-27T20:32:00.000+08:00

TODAY TOTALLY ROCKED!
mann daddy God loves me so so much <3
birthday well wishes and songs. LOL
unforgetable i tell you.
i really wanna say a heartfelt
THANKYOU to all my buddos who made my birthday wonder-wonderful((:
sweetayes. awww

:D
LOTS OF LOVE FROM JOAMS amen.
i missed my chance to shake your hand, dang.
but it's alright. iknowsomeday i'll get myhugsback.

i know im straight amen (:

2006-04-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

EMATH test was a total disaster.
so much so for being confident.
roar. but well looking on the
brightside..at least i slept
at 7 and woke up at 6 this morn.
mann im good. OHYEAH.
* punches fist into the air

geog test tml. heh.
MUGMUGMUG! :B
theres a diff between love and like, right?

sundayyyy

2006-04-23T23:42:00.000+08:00

Dirty Politics.

whats going wrong with our motherland?
honestly i think some MPs are indeed taking things too seriously.
i mean hey, you behave and we'll vote.
You show us how good you guys are and not try to emphasize how bad somebody else is.
It won't help you a single bit. it like rubbing your own name with mud, digging your own grave. i know you're trying to make a statement. but maybe doing it the smart and virtuous way would be a better option?

Geezlouis,
i'm but a four/fiftheen year old teen, voting doesn't concern me abit.
i shall just run along and go snatch primary schooler's ice creams. :D
DUDE, IM COOL.
heh.

i wish i went to church today. but yeah. GODLOVESME. amen!

well okaye so i read her blog justnow.
ohmann. hahah well at least this tiny lil bit of ~~lesbianism~~ is leaving for SURE. heh heh. i feel wierd. now i dont feel like sleeping. bleugh.
joam rammed the door.
and threw her fragile heart out the window.

this is so screwed.
i must be dreaming. it's definately him that i love right.
im just paraniod, really.
so just dont comment bout it alright.
and prayers are of upmost welcome.

right so at this critical moment he came online.
uhhhhh then off. without replying. blardy. but who cares.

Then they cried out to the Lord in their trouble, and He saved them out of their distresses. He sent His word and healed them, and delivered them from their destructions.
Psalm 107:19–20

God, why do you love me ?
im a sucker you know. an asshole.
wretch and the despicable.
yet you still.

it's clearer to me now. you'll love me no matter what.
if im croke or not. so what if things arent goin right?
so what if it seems that daye and i are over.
i have the most important thing. its you.
http://www.newcreation.org.sg/resources/messageofmonth/monthlymessage.htm

intoxicated

2006-04-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

feelings , don't you waver.
don't you waver tonight.
cause this sweet intoxication's such a pleasure .
i'm thinking bout those silly days
those wacky times , ridiculously lovely i tell you .
i miss it really .

there's so much more that i wanna know about you,
don't sway. cause it's all of you and none of me .

isurrendertothestrawberryicecreamyouwereonceuponatimeinlove.accidentallyinlove.<3

Jesus's darling sheeep

2006-04-19T18:25:00.000+08:00

the song dance dance's stuck in my head.

:D

drumming today was alright, class too i guess.
Wordpower was uhh. lovely?. right.
getwellsoon mistercsm , my prayers are solely for you.
*breathes in and out
im God's beloved.amen.

empowernight! yd yd yd

2006-04-14T23:11:00.000+08:00

i could sing of your love forever Jesus!

thankyou for dying on the cross for me :D
im a sinner yet you loved me so much!
though your blood shed i am redeemed from curses and condemnations,
through your blood I AM RIGHTEOUS! amen.
through you, i am and have everything!

*jump jump jumps for joy.

JESUS YOU ARE!<33

this week have been splendid.
went to CYM's empower night with the GB and BB cohort.
IT WAS GREAT! to me that is.
though it was a lil flat but the worship was awesome.
went cycling with my fam this morn.
the kiddos there were SOSO CUTE! hahahah : D

ate mac breakfast by the shore and urh we made friends by giving one cup of coffee to our neighbour! hahaha and well daddy's and my bike had some prob .

our bag got stuck with the front wheel. it was quite bad really.
the metal rimp bent and yeah the wheel was touching the body.
BUT yes this 3 nice helpful malay cool strong dudes helped us. :D
thank God for them.
they refused to accept our token of appreciation, they took a name card instead.
how sweet. 2 of them are married and yeah their all out of school and army yet they look so darn young! cool. hahaha they said" we help one another." aint that cool or what? 3 CHEERS FOR'EM! ((:

was looking through friendster and i stumbled on her pic.
hahahha wanted to save it but no i dint. im not inane.
yet on the other hand i saw him so many times this week.
hahahah im blessed and loved by you so much!

oh and jamming yesterday kinda suck. heh.
what's my prob man.
oh wells.
amen and amen.

I L-O-V-E YOU! jesus!
and it's twelve alr
and mind you i am straight. yes.

and all you had to do was to smile

2006-04-09T17:24:00.000+08:00

HOORAY ARAY TERAY!

hahah cool cool cool
have been rather packed with gb stuffs since friday.
MANN gb IS fun. xD

friday.HPB
rushed there after school, lin-aay and i were station to guard some entrance.
ahahha had a heart to heart talk with her. ((:
hahah cool huh. saw taufik and some parlimant guy.
THE LIL PRIMARY SCHOOLERS ARE DARN CUTE!
but yeah except for those who tries to act cool.

SATURDAY. leadership training at Christ Church sec
It was pretty cool. We attended "leading bible study" :D
MR Leong's so cool. he know so much bout the bible!
though he's a lil monotoned i admit he's pretty much okaye ((:
games. HAHAHHA 2nd coy was retarded! we played cheat and totally madly.
a bunch of lunatics i would say. Candice esp! SHE'S CRAZY CAN. hahahha she looks totally drunk when she gets high!DRILL. whoa. i thank God that our drill aint as bad, really.ZONE INTERECTION. hahaha we're cool bacterias who ambushs our enemies. muaha. so fun. then we went on stage( all of us ) to perform!as in pasang cum performance hahahha :D:D:D
it was overall fun :D love it.

SUNDAY. GB/BB enrollment
COOLCOOLCOOL! <33
hahahha those lil primary schoolers are really adorable!
and their item's just so darling! *jump jumps
lol it was just AWESOME!
i want more combined enrollments.just so cool!

I'm definately getting more and more into GB.
drill tml and i can't wait! :D
woohooo LOVES!
to my ELSHADAI, heavenly . ILOVEYOU!

hey hang in there, cause i know you can pull through.
Take a deep breath.DESTRESS! God's there for you( me too)
hahhaha and i believe you can. ((:

i still.

2006-04-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

enlinnn says:
okaaay
enlinnn says:
im going off
enlinnn says:
see ya
enlinnn says:
-waves
enlinnn says:
tomrorw!!
enlinnn says:

enlinnn says:
-excites
enlinnn says:
-screams
enlinnn says:
-faints
enlinnn says:
-dies
enlinnn says:
-then is alive again
enlinnn says:
-then says bye to joan
enlinnn says:
-and remembers about tomorrw
enlinnn says:
-and excites
enlinnn says:
-screams
enlinnn says:
-faints & dies all over again
enlinnn says:
:D
enlinnn says:
love you lah
enlinnn says:
heh

okaye im sorry but i found that REALLY cute. hahahah
:D:D:D love you too lin-aay!
and urh yeah tricia too!
and SARAAAAA! <333!

hahahha
guess what.
if you put daye and huiting together you'll get da-ting. dating. HAHAHA
okaye fine. it amuses me.

* joam grinned and went away.

tinge of everything.

2006-04-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

Change.
Nobody can deny the fact that nothing stays stagnant;not in the 21st century.
Be it good or bad not a single soul can stop it.

i wouldnt deny the fact that the things around me have been changing drastically since the starting of the year .it somehow makes me feel very uncomfortable and uncertain. to think of it , if you guys were in my shoes you'll feel the strain too.

It seems as if everybodys changing and i stayed behind.
how cynical. Evrything's flying by. As if friendships were stretched across continents and it's so far from reach. i admit this tinge of fear that we'll lost touch. i admit this tinge of jealousy , i admit this thinge of doubt. i do wonder .

' let not my heart be troubled, neither let my heart be afraid aye? '
yeah alright. all to daddy.i'm carefree. ((:

sister baked muffins today.
cool. blueberry muffins. i'll try sneaking some to school.
hahah she's urh, overprotective bout them? RAWR.
and just said that her cookies looked like SAI. HAHAHHAHAHA
oh wells.
PFT TML.
ALL THE BEST GUYS!
love, loves.

mypaperheartwillbleed

I don't know daddy. Relieve me.

2006-04-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

On days like this , I really can't help but feel alil solitary or is it derelict?
I don't know whats wrong, really.
im just feeling all foiled up in there.
daddy God help me please?
I don't get it.

why this sudden rush of confusion?
why this sudden rush of discontentment?

roar.
daddy I know it's all about grace.
but I just feel so down and beaten.
discouraged maybe?
you know dad.
and I thankyou that im feeling better than before now.

tellme I gotta have faith and trust.
cause I think .

im losing hope alr.
the worldly hope that is.
[ God's hope: it will happen because God loves you. comes later but always on time.]
[ earthly hope: it won't happen but just try try lorh`x a faster solution but non durable.]

My dad's colleague commited suicide.
he's a successful man.
RICH, FAMOUS.
loved scuba diving.
it's was just so sudden .
he left behind his wife and 2 kids.
sad huh. and besides he recently won a car for his wife.
sigh. life goes on aye.

i used to love imagining the world without me.
how things would turn out if i was to die that very moment.
and how i enjoy thinking of people sad over it.
im naive. i do admit. sadistic too haha
i guess i'll treasure life more.
yes im sure heaven's a better place.
but i've only got A lifetime to live here.
heaven's eternal..
once you're dead.POOF.it's as if you werent even here before.
no matter how hard you try you just cant come back.
"Game-over, your time is up."- i could imagine the angels say.
life's but frail. even fools would agree.

drill today wasnt as good as last week.
RUTH WE NEED YOU! sigh. timer. i totally suck at it.
got the loudness but not the timing.rawr.one day. yes one day.

out to town tml with lin-aay beth sara ruth can't go. )):
mann. what else? nathang.
know what. im really feeling better now AMEN. haha :D
who`da man mann? hahahha
oh and btw, GOOD MORNING. it's 1.09am
APRIL'S FOOLS DAY. hahah woots!
SAVE THE TREES PROJECT!
xP loves.

BIG FAT HAIRY DEAL!

2006-03-29T21:02:00.000+08:00

" i would like mornings better if it started late. "
- way to go garfield!

coode coooode.
okaye, that cool THAI guy.
im pretty much amused by the way they speak. hahah cool manxXx
hahaha da ye's his buddy buddy. how cool is that?
I WANT A THAI BUDDY TOOO
roar-a-moo
code wanted a basketball so da ye the big gor gor brought him to heartland mall to gether with weiqiang and then they sent him back to GB centre. NO, code isnt a gb girl. their hostel/camp. gablah. yeah yeah. ((:

taught drums today.
sigh, i wanna learn new drum stuff. think im pretty drained alr. sad i know.
OH and mr HUANG ZING is my chinese remedial teacher. LOL
honestly i did learn a thing or two about him.
yes yes pro-added. YAY.

the geog relief teacher is a witch.

SHALOM EVERYONE!
GREAYYT DAYEE TML!
<333! ((X

laugh your buttocks off people.

2006-03-27T17:13:00.000+08:00

hello hello.

i ripped this off winston's blog.
im sorry, but this is too funny for me to resist.
im nice, i share good stuff with my friends. * claps with sheer excitement.

:D

You should not attempt these things during an actual exam. The following is meant for entertainment purposes only.

1. Bring a pillow. Fall asleep (or pretend to) until the last 15 minutes. Wake up, say "oh geez, better get cracking" and do some gibberish work. Turn it in a few minutes early.

2. Get a copy of the exam, run out screaming "Andre, Andre, I've got the secret documents!!"

3. If it is a math/science exam, answer in essay form. If it is long answer/essay form, answer with numbers and symbols. Be creative. Use the integral symbol.

4. Make paper airplanes out of the exam. Aim them at the instructor's left nostril.

5. Talk the entire way through the exam. Read questions aloud, debate your answers with yourself out loud. If asked to stop, yell out, "I'm so sure you can hear me thinking. " Then start talking about what a jerk the instructor is.

6. Bring cheerleaders.

7. Walk in, get the exam, sit down. About five minutes into it, loudly say to the instructor, "I don't understand any of this. I've been to every lecture all semester long! What's the deal? And who are you? Where's the regular guy?"

8. Bring a Game Boy (or Game Gear, etc. . . ). Play with the volume at max level.

9. On the answer sheet (book, whatever) find a new, interesting way to refuse to answer every question. For example: I refuse to answer this question on the grounds that it conflicts with my religious beliefs. Be creative.

10. Bring pets.

11. Run into the exam room looking about frantically. Breathe a sigh of relief. Go to the instructor, say "They've found me, I have to leave the country" and run off.

12. Fifteen minutes into the exam, stand up, rip up all the papers into very small pieces, throw them into the air and yell out "Merry Christmas. "If you're really daring, ask for another copy of the exam. Say you lost the first one. Repeat this process every fifteen minutes.

13. Do the exam with crayons, paint, or fluorescent markers.

14. Come into the exam wearing slippers, a bathrobe, a towel on your head, and nothing else.

15. Come down with a BAD case of Turet's Syndrome during the exam. Be as vulgar as possible.

16. Do the entire exam in another language. If you don't know one, make one up! For math/science exams, try using Roman numerals.

17. Bring things to throw at the instructor when s/he's not looking. Blame it on the person nearest to you.

18. As soon as the instructor hands you the exam, eat it.

19. Walk into the exam with an entourage. Claim you are going to be taping your next video during the exam. Try to get the instructor to let them stay, be persuasive. Tell the instructor to expect a percentage of the profits if they are allowed to stay.

20. Every five minutes, stand up, collect all your things, move to another seat, continue with the exam.

21. Turn in the exam approximately 30 minutes into it. As you walk out, start commenting on how easy it was.

22. Do the entire exam as if it was multiple choice and true/false. If it is a multiple choice exam, spell out interesting things (DCCAB. BABE. etc. . ).

23. Bring a black marker. Return the exam with all questions and answers completely blacked out.

24. Get the exam. Twenty minutes into it, throw your papers down violently, scream out "Forget this!" and walk out triumphantly.

25. Arrange a protest before the exam starts (i. e. Threaten the instructor that whether or not everyone's done, they are all leaving after one hour to go drink)

26. Show up completely drunk. (Completely drunk means at some point during the exam, you should start crying for mommy).

27. Every now and then, clap twice rapidly. If the instructor asks why, tell him/her in a very derogatory tone, "the light bulb that goes on above my head when I get an idea is hooked up to a clapper. DUH!"

28. Comment on how sexy the instructor is looking that day.

29. Come to the exam wearing a black cloak. After about 30 minutes, put on a white mask and start yelling "I'm here, the phantom of the opera" until they drag you away.

30. Go to an exam for a class you have no clue about, where you know the class is very small, and the instructor would recognize you if you belonged. Claim that you have been to every lecture. Fight for your right to take the exam.

31. Upon receiving the exam, look it over, while laughing loudly, say "you don't really expect me to waste my time on this drivel? Days of our Lives is on!!!"

32. Bring a water pistol with you.

33. From the moment the exam begins, hum the theme to Jeopardy. Ignore the instructor's requests for you to stop. When they finally get you to leave one way or another, begin whistling the theme to the Bridge on the River Kwai.

34. Start a brawl in the middle of the exam.

35. If the exam is math/science related, make up the longest proofs you could possibly think of. Get pi and imaginary numbers into most equations. If it is a written exam, relate everything to your own life story.

36. Come in wearing a full knight's outfit, complete with sword and shield.

37. Bring a friend to give you a back massage the entire way through the exam. Insist this person is needed, because you have bad circulation.

38. Bring cheat sheets for another class (make sure this is obvious. . . like history notes for a calculus exam. . . otherwise you're not just failing, you're getting kicked out too) and staple them to the exam, with the comment "Please use the attached notes for references as you see fit. "

39. When you walk in, complain about the heat.

40. After you get the exam, call the instructor over, point to any question, ask for the answer. Try to work it out of him/her.

41. One word: Wrestlemania.

42. Bring balloons, blow them up, start throwing them around like they do before concerts start.

43. Try to get people in the room to do the wave.

44. Play frisbee with a friend at the other side of the room.

45. Bring one pencil with a very sharp point. Break the point off your paper. Sharpen the pencil. Repeat this process for one hour.

46. Get deliveries of candy, flowers, balloons, telegrams, etc. . . sent to you every few minutes throughout the exam.

47. During the exam, take apart everything around you. Desks, chairs, anything you can reach.

48. Complete the exam with everything you write being backwards at a 90 degree angle.

49. Bring a musical instrument with you, play various tunes. If you are asked to stop, say "it helps me think. " Bring a copy of the Student Handbook with you, challenging the instructor to find the section on musical instruments during finals. Don't forget to use the phrase "Told you so".

50. Answer the exam with the "Top Ten Reasons Why Professor xxxx is a Terrible Teacher"

thankyou winston!
hahhahaha
okaye enough of the greayyt dayyee thingy.
:P

muack

2006-03-26T17:21:00.000+08:00

went to visit lin-aay's mummy on friday night hahha had fun there right lin? D.O.A woohoo. we were this* close to a dead body. hahhaha okaye who knows maybe there aint a body in there at that time. oh wells. it was a great experience, pretty thrilling too hahhaa we couldnt find the babies but yeah, oh wells.

drill on friday was fun!
and i love saturdays. TOTALLY MAN.
gb/bb's enrollment's on 9 april. cool huh. ((:

church today was FABULOUS.
Hope to the world's : " i know it wont help but try la"
Hope to God is: " i know it will happen cause im his righteousness thru Jesus."

coolaye huh? woots.
blog on more later, for now it's homework.
roar.

and lin-aay i want you to know that the five of us will always be here for you yes! Hang on soldier! daddy God loves you, we too! MUACK! <3333