and all that i wanted was to have a friend to hold .
and all the torments that i've been thru ,
i've suffered loss and i've yet to break through .
It hurts , this self-inflicted wounds , i can't pick myself up .
i need you , Jesus - my hope is in you .

through the darkness of these valley
i will turn to you my Jesus .
Down with the sickness ,
i'll cast them on your throne.
i lift up my voice to sing ,
in you i have everything
For your love's the light of my path.

My Hope is in you ,
My hope is in you .
Jesus , i know you'll bring me through.
Your Love is in me ,
Your love is in me .
Jesus carried all my sins on the cross,
and by he's blood am i , reborned.

once made righteous by the blood of Jesus everything that wasn't right before will be made right . Why? cause we're made right with God and that being our blood bought right to it. amen (:

the sermon today was brilliant.
we're blessed cause we're redeemed from the curse and it's not by our self-effort.
Christianity isnt a religion cause religion require us to work , work and work even more to get to heaven or in other words get into favour with the gods. But Christianity isn't. We can come freely to God like a child to his/her father . ( heb 4:4-16 ) we're not under the law. that's before Jesus's death and resurrection .Through Jesus's blood that washes away ALL OUR SINS OF OUR ENTIRE LIFE, We're under the Grace covenant now! and that's the reason why Jesus came for us. (galatians 5:4, 2 corintians 3:5-9 ) and if you think it was easy for God to let him son down to suffer , YOU'RE WRONG. It was a very painful decision, would you in your right mind sacrifice your son?
and hey, Jesus is God too. He could have said no. BUT did he? he didn't , and it's because HE LOVES YOU. and in return of this love , we love him back. IT's not by our love that we touched Him in any way.

SIT STILL until you know the answer ( to your problems ) cause your redeemer( Jesus ) will not rest till it is settled ( fear not, cause he will solve the problem for you.Remember , he's hand is bigger than yours . ) Ruth 3:18

alright , i'll end here by saying this.
we're HIGHLY FAVOURED and DEEPLY LOVED by Jesus and that he makes all things beautiful in he's time. so FEAR NOT; for we serve a GOOD GOD. amen , amen.
BLESSED WEEK AHEAD YA'LL and goodbye late mornings!

no wonder i'm hearing so much aeroplanes zooming pass my estate.
that ndp rehearsal. crap , it's one of those days that i'm missing you like mad.
it's around this time last year that we met aye? hmm.. talking bout the series of dreams i've been having bout you. gosh, i wish you were online. but i know i dont have that sorta courage to talk to you . i should have known , then i wouldn't have ..

anyway, CHURCH TML!
pastor prince's back! YAY! :D
oh manzo , I CAN'T WAIT.
ohoh ate durian today. stinked up the whole place. whee.
though, im still not loving that taste. heh.
my lil junior ailing's a cutie. hahahha
" do we need to memorise the whole prefects' handbook? "
she puts a smile on my face. i feel all jie-jie-ish (:


oh and you wouldnt believe it, he came online.
HAHHAHA :D AMEN.
still i dont think i'll dare to talk so wth. heh
loves!

school's reopening soon and frankly im kinda happy.
all the bummering's gotten me into becoming an airhead.
love's not a feeling cause feelings waver but love don't. i guess yeah. infatuation's the key answer there?
i hate it when my mind's just empty. everything's just wierd. i rather keep my mind preoccupied with lame-ass stuff or schoolwork , prefect stuff maybe. it's so much more productive and less hurtful. i guess my role's heavier now with 4 juniors to shower care for.i'm gonna do my best to raise them up as stars. i will and i can.

played warcraft today ,mann am i addicted to it and gee, how time flies!
now i know why guys are addicted to dota // lan games. :D
well, leisure's important. though too much will indeed kill.
went for lunch and window shopping with beth in the afternoon .
if you're going bugis and you're interested in trying the new japanese ice cream that cost 4 bucks. PLEASE DON'T TRY IT. just look and walk away. it stains your tongue and gives you a headache.

hahahha oh wellos.
drink loadsa water sir ,you're still the person i'm looking forward to see on national day. im sorry bout that drumming incident.but hey , you did well. im serious. Jesus loves you , his beloved too.

Far away - Nickelback

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that super small bra we saw at carrefour on sunday. it's from japan and it cost $2.95? hahaha A65 , it's the smallest i've seen so far. hmm, im wondering if it was meant for chiwawas or something cause if not i guess japanese chics are just dang small.

ohwellos , jamming tml and i'm loving it! :D
i guess you knew when i was jealous , that look on your face just tickles me. you knew when i was envious too huh. but you still came back and that's why i love you. kinda. maybe. alil. more. every. day. HEH

if it's an infatuation, im sorry my dear.

they say if it's love, it won't fate away easily -no?
it's kinda funny how i'm always reflecting bout things in the toilet,
esp when i'm showering. it seems as if it's the perfect time to do so.hmm, wierd.
anyway, Pastor Lawrence shared a great deal of a sermon based on " beholding the Love of Jesus" . None of self, all of God. Feeling's not faith, your faith's always there irregardless of your feelings. amen and amen to that.

happy ahpa day! chicken rice dinner was good.
Seah street, GO TRY! it's cheap too.
CHIN CHIN HAINANESE CHICKEN RICE.
dang, i should get paid for advertising.

i'll never forget those sneaky little giggles, i'll keep them deep inside my heart.
to be honest i'm still amazed at how far we've been thru, we're like, cool!
haha , you make me feel like the luckiest person on earth to have known you . we're gonna be friends forever.and i mean it. i love you ! :D

a picture frame with no boundaries
colours that never fades
a gush of a million expressions
those words that i'd never say

i'm pulling myself together ;
I'VE GOT SO MUCH TO SAY!

england vs. paraguay 's match was such a disappointment, really.
with that element of soccer teamwork spirt missing.
i doubt any of them would win this year. oh wells.
okaye,i'm not that good at soccer nor recognising soccer player's names nor their numbers.
21 looked like 27 valdez looked like haldivos.
okaye go on , tease me. hahaha

england made a huge mistake to send owen out. a bigger mistake to keep crouch.
he's good, but too much leg space for attackers to get the ball and he made loadsa misses. england could have scored much more than just a stinky 1 mann (whats more an own goal.) if owen was still in there. cause owen was always on guard as striker until he left- feeding england's golden oportunity to paraguay .
okaye , disagree with me. you should. oh and i must say both team's goalkeepers are GOOD. oh-yeahh!

trinidad&tereno vs. sweden was a better match.

okaye,stupid things as usual.



i'm sorry but nelson valdez reminds me of hellboy oohoh! and that mexican referee reminds me of ompa lompa! HAHAHAHHA

> okaye dont look like. fine. hahaha oh wells .

The Lord's love is everlasting. whoosh. AMEN!. ((:
muchloved.

umm yeah , so i see.

You Are 36% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

You Are Ernie

Playful and childlike, you are everyone's favorite friend - even if your goofy antics get annoying at times. You are usually feeling: Amused - you are very easily entertained You are famous for: Always making people smile. From your silly songs to your wild pranks, you keep things fun. How you life your life: With ease. Life is only difficult when your friends won't play with you!

i wanted elmo. sighh.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

yeah, whatever.

Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you! Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter. You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you. You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover. Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives. Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours. No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.

oh okaye.

You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird... But too damn weird to do anything about it!

so lil, but cool anyhow. : D

You Are A Jealous Ex

You're not quite over your past, and you are hurt that your ex is moving on You're no longer in love, but you're not done with being pissed Jealous of any happiness that comes your ex's way, you still can't let go

i'm honest.

Your Inner Child Is Angry

You're not an angry person. But when you don't get your way, watch out. Like a very manipulative kid, you will get what you want. Even if it takes a little kicking and screaming.

COOL

You Are Cyclops

Dedicated and responsible, you will always remain loyal to your cause. You are a commanding leader - after all, you can kill someone just by looking at them. Power: force beams from your eyes

dude , im like.. blind?

You Failed 8th Grade Math

Oh no, you only got 4/10 correct!

fact, but i was bored and sick of those sick qns like WTH! ):

You Are 38% Evil

A bit of evil lurks in your heart, but you hide it well. In some ways, you are the most dangerous kind of evil.

WHHEE ((:

On Average, You Would Sell Out For

$1,123,950

geee..

Your Famous Last Words Will Be:

"Nice doggy."

R-I-G-H-T .

that's the end. loveys and GOODNIGHT! ((:
it've been a rough day , oh boy.. * mumbles

umm yeah , so i see.

You Are 36% Abnormal

You are at medium risk for being a psychopath. It is somewhat likely that you have no soul. You are at medium risk for having a borderline personality. It is somewhat likely that you are a chaotic mess. You are at medium risk for having a narcissistic personality. It is somewhat likely that you are in love with your own reflection. You are at medium risk for having a social phobia. It is somewhat likely that you feel most comfortable in your mom's basement. You are at low risk for obsessive compulsive disorder. It is unlikely that you are addicted to hand sanitizer.

Found yourself yet?

yeah, i've found me .
Tell me if it's true,
Everybody goes through this period of teenage uncertainty.
That wanting to be like everybody else,like those popular kiddos down orchard road yes?
Or maybe that wanting if thee perfect boyfriend whom you know your ladies will be jealous of.(viceversa)
hmm.. howabout that envious and 'i-so-wanna-be-that-girl-!'feeling while you're browsing through friendster profiles?

come on, it's time to admit it alright. lol

Well, here's me.
i've been through that, i'll admit.
i've overlooked myself, often blinded by those material needs.
often wondering why i'm not like those rich/pretty girls hanging around mountain pile of handsome boyschool hunks or rich popular girlschool girls. those cool bitcy nanas who wears branded apparels and so on. well, maybe their born like that. who knows and mann, i dont care. haha

I'm wondering if they're really really happy.
they've got tons of friends and you know you dont have to be a rocket scientist to figure that out. Monkey, they've been to clubs a billion times before their 18 and it's supposed to be COOL. yes, yes. they've got many boyfriends and guys going ridiculously attracted to their extra-ordinary bodies. oh-lala.
But well, how many of their friends will still be there for them when their in need?
how many of those dudes really love them for who they are. how would you know if they
're really happy and that those picture perfect smiles are for real and not plastered on?

oh, and if their home's as comfy and warm like yours?

money can't buy you family happiness nor can looks buy you true love .
money can't buy you real good friends and duh, money cant get you into harvard.
Well, technically you can get into harvard but you know you've got no merits fit for it.

in some sense money's a pollutant . oh, fame too.

you know, im really blessed.
and i'll say you guys should count your blessings EVERYDAY. ((:
I have friends i can hold on to for life. trust me, definately.
though im not popular nor am i really pretty nor rich ,
i have a big warm family and friends who accepts me for who i really am.

im not cool nor am i funny. But, i'm accepted.
I dont have to act like somebody else to make people like me , just like you miss.
you dont have to pretend to be someone else to seek friends/love or whatsoever.

and you think 'cool-assed' people are stable. they have their flaws and insecurities too you know. that's them -they're born like that ( some! )
many of them have bad/sad family backgrounds thats why their like that.
now, your normal ( i hope. )

i know you guys think those 'perfect people' on friendster's really idealistic ,
Hey, their insecure too. they cant really secure their friends, they struggle to find true finds too. and mind you drinking / smoking doesnt give you a 'cool' label nor does it clear your doubts.

i guess by now you'll get the point.
i might catch afew flags but well it's alright. (:
i hope i cleared a mind or two, find yourself and LOVE yourself.

if you're caught in it, step out of it.
if your born in it, stay in it.
you'll know when you really learn to love and accept yourself ,
you dont have to please anybody.

(:
lets end of by saying no matter what Jesus will still love me.
that makes me smile . :D

im kinda into short blog entries haha
korean frenzy.
missed gb-bad cramps.
delirium over the hedge.AMEN!

okaye i guess i'll just end off with this:


awww.. hahahha
alright thats the end.
loveys. CHURCH TML! YAY! :D