Just when i thought i've got all my thoughts and feelings straightened up bethanie just gotta put me in the spot. i wont talk bout bgr matters anymore. it doesnt make sense.it's just such a long and draggy issue as a matter of fact boring yet interrogative at the very same time. so they were all right bout it from the start.
we shouldnt get ourselves in a relationship in secondary school.it's but inmature and hurtful. i wished we were still talkable friends.
i've learnt my lesson,the hard way.

tomorrow's the day i'll start afresh .
AMEN.

okaye so i dont know about you guys but i enjoyed camp ALOT.
hahaha slept in tents with sara linaay and ruthie .WOOTS, my gb buddies since p2.
we had high rope course and kayaking.

HIGH ROPES-it's amazing how people looked so brave in person yet so timid up there.Those 'toughies' in my class ran away.
' im afraid of height okaye!!'
yes i understand that.but for YOU, talking so much doesnt help does it? hahaha but okaye im glad that you did the zipline hahaha it was kinda funny but yeah.
claps for you

KAYAKING- ahahaha beth knew one of hte instructer. it was kinda funny how they both reacted to each other. he's called charles. pretty cute hahaha tanned.

we had our campfire on the first night hahah we danced "that thing you do" and we wore our crops big earrings, sun glasses, handmade necklaces and so forth. we had LOADSA fuN! hahaha but the guys , as usual ,BLUR.

second day.it's a whoa.
one heavy activity after another.
orienteering, we ran from camp all the way into the forest then to the end of the beach area then back. it's worser then 2.4 , whats more we had to look for the chess thingy and mann was it a chore.

straight after that we had rock climbing.
hahahhaha TIRING! well climbed twice. kinda regretted cause i dint get to touch the top. SHITLA. but well it's okaye. hahaha so much better than when i douldnt do anything when i was in sec 1. hahahha oh wells

after the rockwall we had zipline and abseiling. my abseiling SUCKED. sigh.i wanna train myself up hahah end of the year pec camp! WOOTS. zipline was fun!hahaha my ball hit the red spot. and hahahah MR WONG CC DID IT TOO.
you guys should have seen his facial expression. DAMN FUNNY. he looked like a constipated goofhead .immagine him holding on to a whiteboard and writing " ahh...!" on it. and yeah, he brought his markers along to camp! ahahahaha he said he forgot. so lame can. we had telematch on the second night. SO SO SO SO FUN. the watermelon apples cheers and so forth. i almost vomited. roar hahaha beth's big mouth really helped hahaha.

we did loadsa stupid stuff at camp. jumping around, getting high. oh and zann tried to kiss me once and he saw. she bit me too. she's a canniball! hahahha sara's aching all over and beth cant laugh cause she has a bad case of sunburn on her facial areas. HAHA.

i could only wish the camp was longer.
running around with the garbage bag at hand catching wind hahah and looking at you before going to bed. it's really nice cause whenever i close my eyes i see you . Your smile, your laughter , your lame ass jokes.you made my camp worthwhile.((:

My class.
so i wouldnt say that my class's the best class.
i do admire F3-2, it was like F2-3(2005).they're just so united. coolies.
F3-3 too. hahah the joker class-it's just so enjoyable. i kinda wish there was some coolies in my class as in those joker dudes or plainly guys who arent so gayishs unlike my classmates who wont woke with girls.like in primary sku.

oh wells. im grateful none the less. THANK YOUs for making my camp worthwhile too: SARA BETH ALIANA HAFSAH SARAH JAMIE JIAWEN ELICIA ((: loves you! esp jiawen whom i got married too on the double rope challenge. hahahaha :D

thankyou jesus for making my camp great.BLESSED. LOVE<33!

i've been busy.

Pray for me, yeah?
In school, studies , love and all .
much appreciated.
In God i trust,LOVES.

Before the sky turn dark blue,
i wanna say my last i love you.

I hope those days were true,
even though it's hard to be renewed.

so here, right here, on the bus to nowhere i asked:
and you said you think .

i was happy- i remembered.
now that i've got the answer at hand.
feeling lost and accomplised at the same time.

God's with me.
I'm strong, i know.

goodbye, for now.
no matter how hard i try,
i cant stop yapping about you.
so here i yearn till that hopeful day.
dreadful it is.

you're still beautiful to me.

i scored 3 marks over 20 for my emath test.
HAHAHA yes i know. ((:

Lovesick suicide, it'll come to pass.

to think about it, if we're still together now the possibility of us still being together's relatively low- i think.

roar. im getting sick of dealing with my emotions, might as well turn lesbian or something.or maybe not.

i'm leaving through the back door, just to let you know.
this time im leaving for sure.
The spare key's on the dresser.
im leaving , leaving for good.
Case Closed.

so i said a little prayer for you .

taken from Helen Steiner Rice's Daily Devotional Calendar:
FEBRUARY 7
Stop awhile to reminise
And to pleasantly review
Happy little happenings
And things you used to do.
helen steiner rice

I remember the days of old, i meditate on all that thou hast done; i muse on what thy hands have wrought.psalms 143:5

Today, be thankful for pleasant memories.


such meaningful thoughts aint it. well it's your birthday today, i have so much to tell you. Yet, i really cant. It's such a negative world.I just cant defy.Well, the times we had was so pleasant and lovely it's just too bad for me aye.the foolish one.oh wells. I guess things happen for a reason or two. Only God knows. the one's whose in the north-east gate looking down.

she muttered under her breath as she watch him disappear,
"you wont be gone for long right? this i hope and pray. i love you, i think and hope."

I trust in you El Shadai.

sometimes shes hot sometimes im cold sometimes my head wants to explode
but when i think about it I'm so in love with her- LFO

that really speaks to me. hahaha yeahh.love you la.((:
oh wells three more days to his birthday, i really hopes everything will turn out fine.oh wells

Prefects installation today.
it was horrid.the P.A was screwed. everything was a rush.i think all the other school prefects who came were least impressed. infact, i bet they thought of us like a small flea- which is very sad. Mann by hook or by crook i must and will make the next one much much better. AMEN but well hey, imma councillor! hahaha my dream came true :D yay amen.woohoo. and well to all the prefects who came. i'm sorry. haha

LIn-aay and i had one of the funniest conversations ever.
okaye so i procastinated this post was supposed to paste the whole conver here but i closed the window. rahh. but well it went something like this.

LIN:joan you look so cute when you're constipated
JOAN:haha okaye so the next time i poop i'll take pictures of myself and label them "the cutest moments"
LIN: HAHHAHAHA

HAHAHHA, enlin's wonderful. :D

Something pretty cool.
i had a bad bad headache in the morn so i dint go to sku , felt better so i went back to sku -just in time for the installation.Mrs lian actually striked my name off cause i was absent and kinda refused to let me join the rest.rahh.ohwells.(hey Thank you Javine Joanne Aver and Xuanli for praying haha loves!).lol in total i missed 2 whole days of sku hahaha COOL HUH but the homework isnt. yesterday i went to Ngee Ann poly for "The Grand Olympia bridge building competition" R.I. won.hahaha but well we had loadsa fun there. WOOHOO. eric's a jokerboy.and well saw many handsome duds and a few annoying As*wipes.
one poly guy roared
"AYE LOOK SECONDARY SCHOOL NOOBS."
we replied.
"WE ARENT NOOBS YOU ASSHOLES."
what we initially wanted to say was,
"WE ARENT NOOBS YOU CHAR SAO "
well apparently that guy was fat and was wearing red.sheesh.

oh yeah , i played badminton with high-heels today hahaha
valerie's a very tough but cool player. :D
SARA MOBO'S FUNKAYE