Faith like a child , love like a WHOREHEAD.

not the love of God, material love. yes. hhaha
well today was pretty cool, went hopping.
hopping from my place to ding's to beth's lin's then sara's . woo.FUN MARN.well definately the angpaos was better.lol.sheesh (so money faced joan), yeahh yeahh i bet that's all your evil intentions too. bahh. had loadsa fun today and i finally managed to talk to enlin like last year hahaha YAY. whoosh. i only wished the holidays would drag longer. i mean till im happy. ((: hahahah impossible but still possible. lol. oh wells gonna count my angpao moneys later.woo am i excited. hahaha whatever the amount is, im contented already ahahha really. so blessed this year.GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME! woo. love love love.

mann photo galore when i upload my pictures hahaha mann it was so fun taking pictures with my babes today. hahaha and enlin told me there's a road after my name.YAY.joan road or something. she said take 93 and you can see that road. hahaha .WOO HOOO. mann okaye im high. very. woo. too happy alr. YAY. hahaha

HAPPY CNY PEOPLE!
may you all have an almightily blessed , angpao infested NEWYEAR.:D
recieved quite alot of angpaos today. well havent opened any so i dont really know the amount.lol i pray that it'll be over a hundred lol.

REGARDING THAT GABLAH "10% offering ($20)"
Lol , see i was testing you guys.
and im proud to say you guys read my posts! hahaha
okaye , okaye fine. my mistake. i'm sorry. well it's pretty much cause i figured out that $200 shopping spree aint enough for me so i changed it to $500 and forgot to change. yes, yes now you know. and i rebuke what sara said that i fail math. I WONT! by God's grace. ((: YAY.

came across this on the net:




lol such darlings arent they.

Because of what you did on the cross Jesus. I can now seat on the right hand of God, clothe in righteousness. Jesus , your love is magnificent, eternal , beyond any doubt.I LOVE YOU JESUS!and thank you for loving me allll sooo dearly!:D
As he is, so am i in Christ.
mann do i feel as if im falling in love again. hahaha.

Went shopping with sara lin-aay and beth yesterday.
bought 3 shirts yesterday. lol one from kappa!! YES.woohoo so darn proud of it.Whats more it only cost $19.90:D i saved bout nine bucks on that.haha.
Got another brown shirt from fila , enlin has the same one too lol.

Okaye so i'll admit , the only reason why i went shopping yesterday was to get a birthday cum christmas gift for daye.yeapp i never knew that it'll be so hard to get a shirt for a guy. i passed by many great teeshirt shops. GREAT designs but my lovely threebuds said it doesnt suit him at all.sigh. another reason why i wanna be a guy. ALL THEIR SHIRTS ARE JUST SO DARN COOL.and THEY'VE GOT FLAT CHEST . lol but well that doesnt mean that i wanna go for a sex exchange, anyway. I finally settled down for a tshirt from fourskins. they didnt have large so i got him extralarge.lol i hope the tee will shrink or something- that'll be just great. ((: love that shirt.

well enlin had a $100 dollars shopping spree yesterday and well it got me thinking.
What would i do with $500? well here goes:
-10% offering ($20)
-$100 stuff for my fam
-$200 off to the bank
-$80 nice tops from topshop or various shops.
or skirts/shorts/jeans.
-$100 a nice cheap SARI.- :D

lol yeapp. that'll do.
anyway HAPPY NEW YEAR YA'LL.get loadsa loadsa angpaos yes!
LOVE, LOVE.

Whoever said sec 3 life is fun is a liar.
OKAYE maybe not. hahaha

it have been really fun.No longer that stupid primary sku-ish behavior. It's more on reality now. hahaha like THE REAL WORLD. ((:

oh wells. have been really busy and stressful these days.
installation on 3rd feb , building bridge competition on 2nd feb.
trainings , meetings , piles of homework. MANN.i almost went berserk.
STRESSKILLS.yes i bet you know it too.
rahh back to work.

BYE WORLD.
:D
twelve more days to your birthday, and mann is that the best day ever. ((:

Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.
Matthew 11:28
(NKJV)

I believe, daddy God i believe .
To him who carries my every fear and shattered dreams.
whatever's in stalled for me and him i do not know but all i know is that i shant let this unpredictament pin me down to the ground.I'm gonna live my life, happily like i used to.And who knows, we'll get together after sec sku. hahahha yes, thats the way. no more sadistic thoughts. hahaha ((:

JESUS ,Wonderful, Counselor-I LOVE YOU! xD



hahaha ((:
i know they aint fantastic, im happy the way i am.
better off without make-up. really. (:

somehow school haven't been very encouraging.
Busy with prefects , school stuff , coping with lousy teachers.
RAHHH , tell me how to be motivated?

" joan , i think it's time to move on." -that on-going debate inside me.

i'm Confused.
maybe i've just set unrealistic goals for him. i havent been an understanding partner.
"your my divine discontent ",at least thats what i tot.
2 months after we bidded goodbye. flashbacks of happy times invaded my mind.It's rather contradicting to my prayer bout him after we broke.
" DADDY GOD IF WE'RE MEANT TO BE , HELP ME LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY."but deep inside i was like , bleah no way. he suck that asswipe

YOU, you're the culprit all the long.i guess thats why i dont feel much beating within me. you took my heart and ran away.

I did some reflecting , i was wrong.
i've been too selfish.
All that i've said bout him, i take them back. i repent.
i'll do whatsoever just to clear them off.
it's hard for me to stomach this , really.
All the mean words that i've said, i knew they were like deathblows to you.
i'm sorry, i truly am.

if only i've got the courage to tell you.
2 years ain't that long baby.
it really isn't.i'll wait to the very end.
it's alright , i understand.
and to forgive and forget.

rahh.

i miss your hand in mine.
i miss that cheeky smile ,
i miss that idiotic laughter and pervertic jokes.
i miss those calls and message.
i miss those evil sneers.
i miss those misunderstandings too.
I MISS EVERYTHING and esp.you
rahh but whats the use , im bounded by a bgr contract.

Sometimes you've just gotta fall to realise how important something is to you.
and sometimes , the fall's just so hard that it breaks you .


teach me , bleach me.
any emo songs to intro?
feed my crave for it. PLEASE.

updating soon , have been busy in school .
gonna repaint my house yeah hahaha woo
:D

Love ya'll .

So yes , it's the 2nd day of 2006 .

well it started off kinda rough and well ended off quite awkwardly.
ah wells , i wont go into detail, let bygones be bygones.

school tml . like any other normal person i would definately wish i that i can stay at home and slag . But well you know , i kinda wish that i can hang around orchard ,gather with my friends , shop and go to work?
i know it's kinda wierd but well thats me.
i like wierd people. i think their cool . hahha

oh wells .
and i jsut remembered bout a project that i have to pass up tml.
and guess what.
IT'S NOT EVEN TOUCHED.
yes yes pro me. GAHH!

anyway , HAPPY START OF SKU and WORK! :D

Today's message was really an eye opener.

hahaha following the holy spirit within. mann what a revelation.
you know i was thinking bout loadsa things bout last year , the kind of music i listen to , the things i've done , failures and success.

And well my verdict:

Why am i hiding/ killing my joy within by listening to emo songs?
i am a very cheerful and bubbly girl but why am i giving in to the evil one?
sheesh. foolish aint it. so this is it im promising myself to not drown myself with emo songs .

And why am i so cautious bout what others think i mean if i wanna put eyeliner on , im gonna put it on. If i wanna wear a short skirt , im gonna wear it.
It wasnt meant to be a bitchy statement.And well why am i trying so hard to be so called a emokid? i am , or should i put it I WAS. but not anymore. Im gonna be my true self. that happy sunshine family girl who'll melt whenever i see children.

LOL im kinda amused by what i just said.
anyway im still gonna support the bands that i heart.
I've got my priorities right . :D

and well i just realised onething.
the guys that i like are mostly 3 years older than i am.
hmm anyway i cant imagine myself dating , no not at this age.
my previous experience was kinda horrible. so yes , only when im mature enough.
HAPPY SECOND DAY OF 2006! hahaha