know, i really do like to mug cause i feel accomplished after doing so and i do like it cause i know my brain's fuller than before. i can't really plan my time i admit but what's worst i HATE it when people try to plan my time for me or POKE into my affairs and give comments bout how i should handle things. I KNOW MYSELF BETTER THAN YOU DO. you DONT know me. you are always away! what do you know about me? you dont even care what , than why should you now?

GO on out with your friends outside , even when i'm sick all you could say was " don't fake la" and when i have terrible migrane headaches and had to stay at home " see she's always like that pon school" . WOW thanks brother, you're the BEST.
you never did said that " wei , im proud of you that you're a councillor." or " wow good you're a squad leader now " .

Who are you to say you know me when you dont even bother to ask me how my days were when i dont see you a few days in a row. Who are YOU to instruct me to do things when all you said when i got home is " go study la , best thing off the com and study. Mummy and Jie have been saying that you werent studying . OH and don't talk on the phone. "
WHAT THE HELL DO YOU KNOW?
you dint see me study. you dint see me nothing!
do you even ask me how my paper was? or whether im tired?
YOU NEVER PRAISED OR ACKNOWLEDGE ANY GOOD THAT I DID.
you keep on accusing that i have attitude problem and so on.
i must admit. i do have, but it's a rare case -unless im reeally pissed off.
Do you know you HAVE it worse than me?

" i dont like to repeat myself twice . "
that's your favourite phrase. wow, you are so cosure.

i guess you're a dude thats why you dont control your tone of voice. and i am quick to rebut. Hey, im admitting it and i know and i am asking God to change me. i've ask God to make me shut up when im angry . i',m still on it - working hard too.

thanks bro, so much so for being the BEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD.remember how i always wanted to be like you when im younger and having we the same birthday and us being 'twins' ? You dont know but maybe you dont admit it but you hurt me darn lots kaye. You dont even know it when i cried over daye nor when i'm emo over mrs lian's scoldings. See, you said you know me huh. i always try to talk to you. but it ends up in vain. This is your real sister speaking , the one who is now fifteen and no longer that sevem year old brat that you knew.

You didnt even seem keen enough to help me in my Poa. wait you're hardly even at home for me to ask and that's the reason why i gave up so many million years ago to ask you for help. even when i do you are so impatient and called me stupid.

God please help me cause this attitude is driving me absurb. and aye if your smart enough to read this thank you. and i dare say NOW you know joan your little sister a lil more now.

i shed a tear. and God you hear. (:
it's pretty traumatising to have your exams in the hall. hahah timothy's beside me. TOUFU FACE! LOL. papers have been fine i think. yeah grace and favour over me always. lord you love me. amen.