so i guess today started off far from what i hoped it'll be .
I just wanna be alone now, at home. I know i should be contented to have my parents around me most of the time but it's just that .. i want some time alone.

time to be free and grow , think and dream .
It's essential to have time-out from your parents and family , friends too.
you know?

besides that, sometimes i wonder if you knew how much torment you make me go through.
i wanted you back , but i changed that thought cause i know you wanted to move on.
i wanted to be your friend, but you make it so hard. so so hard.
i wanted to be a stranger, but i cant cause of band, our friends-circle.
sometimes i do miss you, when you're around i feel elated. there's this adrenaline rush whenever i see you and that's what makes you special to me. But, im not asking for pity nor whatsoever you think im yearning for. I'm your friend, your band-mate.
and it sucks to be stuck in this emotional syndrome for more than a year already.

call me stupid or that i'm wasting my time.maybe i just think to much, i'll just take it this way. i guess i love you too much that's why. i guess that's why i dont wanna move on and keep myself rooted to this. i hate this. i hate how it seems that i can't live without you. the fact is that i can live without you, i can move on.
haha see, i just contradicted myself. i guess i do hurt you too, i guess you have your own reasons too. God bless us. though , i dont know why you missed my call.
i guess it's alil too late now, (:

things on a lighter note!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIE JIE :D
baked a cake for her yesterday haha here take a look





LOL, to me it's a good attempt. haha
love you jie!

to think of it, i have only myself to blame for this.
but how do you blame someone who is already dead to condemnations?
hahhaa i'll get over this.
till then. love reigns. <3