Found yourself yet?

yeah, i've found me .
Tell me if it's true,
Everybody goes through this period of teenage uncertainty.
That wanting to be like everybody else,like those popular kiddos down orchard road yes?
Or maybe that wanting if thee perfect boyfriend whom you know your ladies will be jealous of.(viceversa)
hmm.. howabout that envious and 'i-so-wanna-be-that-girl-!'feeling while you're browsing through friendster profiles?

come on, it's time to admit it alright. lol

Well, here's me.
i've been through that, i'll admit.
i've overlooked myself, often blinded by those material needs.
often wondering why i'm not like those rich/pretty girls hanging around mountain pile of handsome boyschool hunks or rich popular girlschool girls. those cool bitcy nanas who wears branded apparels and so on. well, maybe their born like that. who knows and mann, i dont care. haha

I'm wondering if they're really really happy.
they've got tons of friends and you know you dont have to be a rocket scientist to figure that out. Monkey, they've been to clubs a billion times before their 18 and it's supposed to be COOL. yes, yes. they've got many boyfriends and guys going ridiculously attracted to their extra-ordinary bodies. oh-lala.
But well, how many of their friends will still be there for them when their in need?
how many of those dudes really love them for who they are. how would you know if they
're really happy and that those picture perfect smiles are for real and not plastered on?

oh, and if their home's as comfy and warm like yours?

money can't buy you family happiness nor can looks buy you true love .
money can't buy you real good friends and duh, money cant get you into harvard.
Well, technically you can get into harvard but you know you've got no merits fit for it.

in some sense money's a pollutant . oh, fame too.

you know, im really blessed.
and i'll say you guys should count your blessings EVERYDAY. ((:
I have friends i can hold on to for life. trust me, definately.
though im not popular nor am i really pretty nor rich ,
i have a big warm family and friends who accepts me for who i really am.

im not cool nor am i funny. But, i'm accepted.
I dont have to act like somebody else to make people like me , just like you miss.
you dont have to pretend to be someone else to seek friends/love or whatsoever.

and you think 'cool-assed' people are stable. they have their flaws and insecurities too you know. that's them -they're born like that ( some! )
many of them have bad/sad family backgrounds thats why their like that.
now, your normal ( i hope. )

i know you guys think those 'perfect people' on friendster's really idealistic ,
Hey, their insecure too. they cant really secure their friends, they struggle to find true finds too. and mind you drinking / smoking doesnt give you a 'cool' label nor does it clear your doubts.

i guess by now you'll get the point.
i might catch afew flags but well it's alright. (:
i hope i cleared a mind or two, find yourself and LOVE yourself.

if you're caught in it, step out of it.
if your born in it, stay in it.
you'll know when you really learn to love and accept yourself ,
you dont have to please anybody.

(:
lets end of by saying no matter what Jesus will still love me.
that makes me smile . :D