On days like this , I really can't help but feel alil solitary or is it derelict?
I don't know whats wrong, really.
im just feeling all foiled up in there.
daddy God help me please?
I don't get it.

why this sudden rush of confusion?
why this sudden rush of discontentment?

roar.
daddy I know it's all about grace.
but I just feel so down and beaten.
discouraged maybe?
you know dad.
and I thankyou that im feeling better than before now.

tellme I gotta have faith and trust.
cause I think .






im losing hope alr.
the worldly hope that is.
[ God's hope: it will happen because God loves you. comes later but always on time.]
[ earthly hope: it won't happen but just try try lorh`x a faster solution but non durable.]

My dad's colleague commited suicide.
he's a successful man.
RICH, FAMOUS.
loved scuba diving.
it's was just so sudden .
he left behind his wife and 2 kids.
sad huh. and besides he recently won a car for his wife.
sigh. life goes on aye.

i used to love imagining the world without me.
how things would turn out if i was to die that very moment.
and how i enjoy thinking of people sad over it.
im naive. i do admit. sadistic too haha
i guess i'll treasure life more.
yes im sure heaven's a better place.
but i've only got A lifetime to live here.
heaven's eternal..
once you're dead.POOF.it's as if you werent even here before.
no matter how hard you try you just cant come back.
"Game-over, your time is up."- i could imagine the angels say.
life's but frail. even fools would agree.

drill today wasnt as good as last week.
RUTH WE NEED YOU! sigh. timer. i totally suck at it.
got the loudness but not the timing.rawr.one day. yes one day.

out to town tml with lin-aay beth sara ruth can't go. )):
mann. what else? nathang.
know what. im really feeling better now AMEN. haha :D
who`da man mann? hahahha
oh and btw, GOOD MORNING. it's 1.09am
APRIL'S FOOLS DAY. hahah woots!
SAVE THE TREES PROJECT!
xP loves.