somehow school haven't been very encouraging.
Busy with prefects , school stuff , coping with lousy teachers.
RAHHH , tell me how to be motivated?

" joan , i think it's time to move on." -that on-going debate inside me.

i'm Confused.
maybe i've just set unrealistic goals for him. i havent been an understanding partner.
"your my divine discontent ",at least thats what i tot.
2 months after we bidded goodbye. flashbacks of happy times invaded my mind.It's rather contradicting to my prayer bout him after we broke.
" DADDY GOD IF WE'RE MEANT TO BE , HELP ME LOVE HIM UNCONDITIONALLY."but deep inside i was like , bleah no way. he suck that asswipe

YOU, you're the culprit all the long.i guess thats why i dont feel much beating within me. you took my heart and ran away.

I did some reflecting , i was wrong.
i've been too selfish.
All that i've said bout him, i take them back. i repent.
i'll do whatsoever just to clear them off.
it's hard for me to stomach this , really.
All the mean words that i've said, i knew they were like deathblows to you.
i'm sorry, i truly am.

if only i've got the courage to tell you.
2 years ain't that long baby.
it really isn't.i'll wait to the very end.
it's alright , i understand.
and to forgive and forget.

rahh.

i miss your hand in mine.
i miss that cheeky smile ,
i miss that idiotic laughter and pervertic jokes.
i miss those calls and message.
i miss those evil sneers.
i miss those misunderstandings too.
I MISS EVERYTHING and esp.you
rahh but whats the use , im bounded by a bgr contract.

Sometimes you've just gotta fall to realise how important something is to you.
and sometimes , the fall's just so hard that it breaks you .


teach me , bleach me.
any emo songs to intro?
feed my crave for it. PLEASE.